Handcuff dream

I dreamt of being handcuffed the type that's old metal cuff, like bicycle lock chain the middle part is big fat metal, it's really crazy, that's the only part of the dream that I remember, it's really sad when I wake up thinking of Monday, it's loss of peace but nobody cares, I wonder why I have readers if nobody cares, I feel like living on my own somewhere like far from my parents, I don't like their decision of nagging if it happens, I'm so unlucky in my life then they add like nagging as anticipation in my life, it's really sad and I have to survive my life? Instead of feeling like "Home Sweet Home" like other people, it's like this instead, Law is too much panic I feel like fingerprint for something so lightweight is crazy, but it's like a cotton of cigarette if people throw still the summon is $300, I really have to go with their flow and just understand Law wanting to do this to people, I hope I can learn Law so they don't cause panic to people's heart when doing their job, it's really bad and I don't find it healthy at all.

When I closed my eyes I vision of a girl smiling looking on top of my head, teeth can be seen by the smile, and looks like old woman like 40+ or 50+ years old, I wonder what it means to experience such vision in life, why psychics don't say anything about my vision and why I'm let be like this.

Today is Sunday, it's supposed to be a good feeling like thinking of next injection as it continues to become 1 year on medication, then I'm thinking of piece of plastic instead, it's such a weight in my life, I remember if I don't open door maybe they will summon, so I really don't know what to do. It's going to be the day that smoking is quite clear to my parents and they probably will make me enter I.M.H again, smoking is hard to stop, I wonder why people like my siblings don't comfort me, nobody talks to my siblings too I guess, the readers made to believe as not my relatives then I guess. I'm so unlucky in life if I have money I wouldn't care about the summon money in my imagination, it's really nothing probably, just for a better heart feelings instead of panic, but I just have to open the door anyway, who told them to move away so fast at that time anyway, it's really crazy no chances at all to "end it". I wonder how I can be happiest at age of 38, it's my happiest age doctor said, then I really don't know if I can really make it, it's probably a soft sadness this 1 day then it becomes 1 week only probably? I should think positive like this? It's really worrying but then nobody speaks to my family to help me.