I plan for a feeling like daily journal but everyday is the same in my mind, I have no life, and my parents just letting my life be what it is instead of encouraging me to feel better like going out to shopping places, it's really a suffering, especially now the anger build up by imagination of police warning my throw of litter, it's really a lot of suspense and painful for me to go through.
I read about a schizophrenic that hate her parents, then she have a boyfriend that she wrote as only have 3 days going out together each year, it's really crazy, she definitely have been cheated because there's no freedom at all for a man? It's really weirdo feeling love, then she wrote about having sex with him, a girl to become like that definitely schizophrenic, who would write of sex stories anyway?
I commented to try make her eat the medicines, then my comments got folded I wonder what it means, maybe she marked as not important? Need to click before the comment appear. It's really weird but I think I'm a nice guy for sharing.
I shared that when I take medicine I thought I have micro robots eaten into me and thought I cheated in exam with help of government, the exam was too easy to do. She do sec 1 and sec 2 books making me thought shes young girl, then she bought A level books, then I really don't know why, maybe I'm becoming like her like planning to study all over again, but she didn't enrol herself to school maybe? It's really weird her decision.
Just now I slept for awhile for 2 hours, my heartbeat are still not nice feelings because of the litter, I don't know how to be comfortable and I hope tomorrow is a peaceful day without knocks at the door, my father definitely would be angry, it's really sad if he don't disallow smoking I would throw in the bin then have no problem with the Law at all, I just want to avoid being scolded, it's really a painful feeling at this age being scolded I will feel like a retarded man.
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