No Schizophrenics to look at

I don't have any more schizophrenics that's smart to look at like klay.hole(TikTok) and Zoe Lim(Ang Zhi Wei Tik Tok), only both of them are interesting, then it's boring if they don't update, I don't have anything to do in life, I kept browsing the same people over and over again, they're the only fun schizophrenics to listen or watch.

It seems like I really found smart schizophrenics, then the idiots or crazy ones don't use TikTok like matching their lifestyle maybe, it's just like that it makes sense. I even followed a female psychologist etc. to hope for a psychic answer somewhere about my life.

I'm just sitting on my sofa right now thinking of studying for O level but nobody encouraged me to do it, it's really boring energy from others, I have told I want to do O level but they just ignore me and didn't even say that I'm schizophrenic, it's really bad my life they believe I will be fine, it's like C.o.C Special Limits, they treat me too normal then I failed to finish the course, it's really sad my life.

I don't know why it's like this, I feel like riding my bicycle then buying stuff at n.t.u.c again, then thinking it's not June yet, then I have June and July left to go and some in May but it's like this, it seems like $200 is the correct amount that then will be enough in life, it's really sad how no money I became and people don't see me as a sane person that needs money but a schizophrenic that wastes money I think. It's sad about why they let me go through these feelings, like something I can't skip in my life, I just have to "feel the pain", worries about many things like a survival life is painful and like a humiliation feeling, it's like a shock at my feet that is a lot of anger like can become a gayboy but my family still treat me the same, it's normal common sense of no starvation, then I really surviving life like that.

I wonder what's wrong if they give me money, what would have happened if they give me money, nobody cares but still feel this type of care is good, I'm so unlucky they treat me from their feelings instead of their mind I think, I really don't know why I'm a smoker, but it's a different luck in life anyway, like they should just help me whatever I became because my brother smokes and still survives in life anyway, in fact all of family members are probably earning a lot definitely by imagining their job status, then me? I'm let to suffer without constant help or it's something I have to request or demand, it's really sad like that, why is helping me not a common sense of the family? Maybe I'm the only one in family that "helps" as common sense? It's really weird they really making me feel having nothing as my vision, means I panic from shortage of money while they actually won't become poor if they give me money but they do it anyway, I really dont know what to do to make them nicer to me.