Satisfaction

Bought nacho cheese smoked chicken bread, have chicken inside the round bread, it's so satisfying and costs $2.60. Feel happy about it.

I wonder if I should buy the table it's 1.8m long, then a computer chair costs $9.90 only, to put in my room, I feel like having a beanbag sofa in room too, like create own room, I just feel empty that's why. Only if my parents gave me money I would do my room maybe like a hipvan even, it's so nice and artistic, I guess they only really giving money for medicine purchases only, it's so sad I really need a counsellor that sides me. I won't make my parents poor and my father work 6 days a week 12 hours a day, then "still no money", it's really bad their decision like a pain to me, it makes me feel like wanting painkiller like tramadol or something nice like benztropine, I don't know why nobody cares about me, Alysha's attacks definitely I deserve to feel nice from the pain, I really feel doctor should give me painkiller but fluoxetine is said as prozac, but it's so small in quantity like if "prozac" its a lot more feelings like stretches of body, it depends what doctor calls it to give it to me, it's really sad this fluoxetine really like nothing to me. I want to feel pleasure even if like prozac.

Paliperidone is too strong giving me anhedonia then there's no police case to Alysha, it's really sad she caused me to need paliperidone then she's free at school achieving higher height in life, it's so unfair, she only looks innocent and she's not but a criminal mastermind type of brain, why Law let her continue her studies? She's only taking advantage of her status 1 day I think, instead of working properly. Law is so unfair to me, it's been over 20 years but it's like this, even Dina maybe can't remember but then that's the sad thing, "bullied" but don't remember, feeling pain like kene cubit or like pressed on body parts then cry for nothing, nobody pity Dina like me in my family. My family also didn't sue Alysha and all of them never reminded me of her, it's so sad I feel an end should happen and I could've probably met Aby and Wahdiah but they feel I am mental illness may be unstable as didnt take medicine properly, theres no difference there's no effort to get them even if I take medicine, it's been almost 1 year, then doctor knew this but still late on helping me out, doctor is seen as on time because he would appear when Alysha attacks sometime or its always, I forgot, doctor is psychic.