Day 291 out of ward(339 on medications)

Today felt so great but it's only the starting of the day, and it's 1st June! 7 more days it will be my injection and I'm happy how I'm finally experiencing the July and 1-14 August outside ward for the first time! This injection will make me last until July and it's a great feeling the end of pain of endurance but then anhedonia still the 2nd pain/sickness other than schizophrenia. It's weird that doctor don't consider anhedonia as another sickness, it's paliperidone then I already ate fluoxetine 2 pills but still experience anhedonia it means it's another sickness? It's really bad my life experience.

I remember my ward from Facebook of Ming Ming Ming that became viral as he tries to push off police from knowing he skipped injections, it's really sad people should look the condition in ward it feels like crazy, I remember I fear the medicine risperidone when I'm in ward, I fear of the stucky or hot feelings I will get from eating that medicine, then I remember now during N level it was risperidone that saved me into a nice 100% all subjects, I don't know why I fear risperidone at that time.

It's really a scary feeling to be in ward, and Ming Ming Ming became viral, an I.M.H person then in the same ward as me probably because of the fat old man at there makes me recognize him, he's still in ward again maybe for not taking medications, it's really bad the life experience of a schizophrenic don't know how many times to be warded per year, but just estimating the same months to be warded then counting each year as once per year when actually been warded more than once some year, it's really sad my experience as schizophrenic then can only blame myself for not taking medications. It's really weird how I don't remember Club Heal when I start taking medications again from last year until this year, it's like remembering for the first time when I followed Club Heal on my Facebook for the 2nd time.

Today is Monday then Club Heal probably will contact me before Saturday.

Today I dreamt a lot but I don't remember my dream, it's really sad like I can't write them down hoping some dream info type of people would message me the meaning of my dreams.

I have 4 more minutes left before 8a.m if I post before 8a.m it would count as "yesterday's date" in the stats of my blog, it's really weird the counting so I'm just writing longer until it's 8a.m to post my blog so the system count properly.

Today I feel greatest of all feelings, the fan only gave little whispery voices of Alysha at the start of the morning, I hope it continues this way and not heartache sentences to be heard by me to feel the entire day then sleeping off the pain for the next day hoping her voices would be gone.

This morning I woke up around 7.25a.m then I go down to buy Redbull then I'm waiting for time to bath.