Today reminds me of the days in ward where I wake up at 6.30a.m to bath then 7a.m hang around for medication then eat breakfast. Life is really boring and people like that I live like this, proves nobody cares about me by the kind of life I live, especially they all do not worry I don't have a lover/partner even at this age, they readied me to become a single man entire life instead, it's sad but it's reality.
In reality I feel tortured because of my singleness as 1 evidence of pain, that they don't effort for the girl I love, they let me grow old risking her life while I kept on memory loss and can't care for her, I am such a useless man.
This morning my medication as normal and I already feel like walking around it's hard to control like the need to exercise daily, then I worry about dark vision and like a foggy dark mind can't think well or properly. I'm really dead meat as fact as people that care don't side on giving me more money to spend, but I end up saving for the government's money in August, I became a retarded person that saves money or like a crazy woman that only relies on government money without working. Life's really bad having to endure all these, and it's too little cigarette to believe cigarette causes all these pain. I really can't do anything in my life.
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