Tried gaming

Tried PSP game Assassin's Creed then it's really boring feeling, I don't feel the fun at all playing the game, anhedonia really killed my happiness, I really can't do anything about it, I wonder why it's like that the feelings just gone, 31st August going to request doctor for oral type of medications then anhedonia will be gone forever I think, wonder why it's taking so long for something like this, I really don't want to suffer from paliperidone injection but I'm just unlucky it still happens, for 1 year I experience anhedonia(a loss of pleasure), then nobody cares I feel something so little in life, it's really bad life experience or journey.

I'm confused about what to do in life, I thought of downloading PS2 games to play on my RG477V but it's like a boring feeling anyway, I really don't know what I can do about having this feeling.

I give up on Club Heal, assuming they won't help anyway, they didn't even try to tell me to quit smoking then they will help, maybe it would be a repeat, then how am I going to study for my O level, I have no guide, they really letting me grow to August without studying anything at all?

Just now I hear my mother talk saying to go Mr. Uncle for my birthday, finally it's something new again, I really hope my sisters present me like money or something, I just want to feel having more or having enough in life, it's just too bad the feelings, I just want 29th June despite my birthday being 19th June as it's the usual warded day that won't happen anymore. I feel like a hard feelings in my head, I'm also upset how I hear like Club Heal is the best counsellor, then it means I can't try for other counsellors to help me, then I can't receive their service because I smoke, I wonder why they don't try to calculate that I quit smoking slowly and help me first anyway, it's really bad this waiting for pleasure or health, I really feel nothing in my life due to anhedonia, everything bores me quickly then I will feel sad feelings being blocked probably by fluoxetine, then it became angry feelings instead, I think I need an angry medicine then I will feel fine.

I thought R would meet me when Pokemon shop opens then it's just the same like any normal day, it's not like I can really do anything anyway, I would probably waste her time and money if she spend time with me, anhedonia really got my life, I need to sue Alysha 1 day but no law ask me about her, it's like they rather let me be feeling like this than earning/getting money for cigarette. It's really harsh my life experience. Everyday is the same "it's really bad, harsh, sad" I can't do anything about feeling like this repetitively, I feel like I've been blocked from feeling happy too.

Just now at Pokemon shop there's no customers then it's a boring day just like that, I wonder why nobody gathers it's just a weird day, I think when they have competition then the start of people gathering there, I heard they will make a competition there.

I wonder what to do in life, anhedonia is real pain in life then people really let me suffer for 1 year, it's really sad I can't do anything and feeling helpless.