I think in the past it was Daily like this too until the boredom ends when I met (A), she makes my life peaceful when she appeared then now she's gone really schizophrenia did a lot to me like losing my happiness and my family don't care or worry if other guys might get her.
Then I started blogging when I met her, to increase the reason to be online as I feel there's nothing to do except for gaming if computers, I remember I planned my Instagram to be heyiaq as i.d then I lost memory, medications made me remember again, this is so many years ago like 17 years. It was our plan together then I used "anasqai" instead as username. She stopped using her Instagram after that I can't find her anymore now, I don't know where she's gone in life. It was something like mine sounds like sh*t instead and I felt I was called sh*t during my schizophrenic moment at that time. I pity (A), she's so innocent she didn't even know I have schizophrenia, me too I did not remember I had schizophrenia and ever been warded before, wow my life now remembering such things, maybe after I have taken enough medication a lot of memories will come back then I became able to work again? I think I'm remembering slowly as I type this. Wow why is my memory actually so good, it's like I can do O-Level without worry already, like I will be super strong in Education, I ever thought there was "voice-sender" to make me remember stuff, then I now discovered it's actually been my memory that's so strong.
I'm really sad if there's no soldier application moment on November or December, I know it's somewhere around this 2 months, I check at YouTube like "Soldier Recruitment November" and see nothing about Singapore's Recruitment, it's only about India. I have 3 more days until the Octave Jobclub again, I hope I would be energetic about it, and healthy with strength more than enough too, I wonder how they know I can't work yet, occupational therapist is like a specialist I think.
Today I'm waiting for my parents to be home hopefully they buy Ramly Burger at Johor, I crave for it, it's been quite a long time since I ate one(it was Anaqi's birthday but it was beef I think then it's not normal).
I hope it's only 3 writings per day next time, as the readers are like collector-type then I actually have no one to chat with as fact, I was wondering who reads secretly, but like have someone else knowing my date of ward 30June-15Aug onwards I may have a blog after that, usually it's like that, I just remembered this part of my life.
I don't know what I should do running out of money soon, I bought clothes then I don't even know where to go out I just know I want to go out, then I ran out of ideas and plan, but it makes me healthier and happier person anyway. I hope I remember when I planned to take O-Level, it feels like year 2027 as fact. If it's like that it's really this and next year is soldier recruitment, I wonder why psychic knows but not in news, it's like my Number from New Company, but psychics knew first that I would be the one using, and it's been many months or years since people sign-up and randomly picking number, then finally my one then it matches the psychics' statement(of my number), wow I'm amazed and believe in psychics after that, but now just hoping psychic is right again maybe because I don't really remember well.
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