Wednesday, October 15, 2025

Days to Past

Everyday is a morning until night waiting at Sofa, I truly have no life, I don't know what to do, I feel like playing my brother's computer but need to ask his permission, I feel like playing Counter-Strike.

I don't have anything to do, I don't know how my mother survive daily like this, wash clothes, cooking at some time, then solat, her daily life just like that while my father works Saturday-Thursday, then I have no life just sitting at Sofa lying down wishing for the day to pass-by me, but if I didn't buy bicycle I would have suffered from other kind of boredom.

Why do I have no life as something normal? If talk of work, only talk of Jobclub on 22nd October as it's doctor's decision at least, I can't work elsewhere with Only N Levels but most jobs don't ask for certificates anyway, I wonder what I should do I have no life. I will try arm spinning exercise again see if I can fall asleep, it relaxes my body when I rest. I still feel like carrying pail and exercise inside the toilet.

Why I can't fall asleep, I tried it's still the same, still sitting on Sofa and I would walk around in house to and fro everytime, I have nothing to do my life is boring. Maybe if stop thinking about School, I get a Jobclub job somehow next year and whole year then it's the end of painful waiting? Why nobody cares maybe it's only 3months since I took medications?

I really have no idea what to do all day. 😭

No comments:

Post a Comment

Day 307 out of ward(355 on medications)

Just 10 days left to be 1 year on medications, I'm finally recovering I hope I will be cured soon. Anyway Happy Birthday Shahridah/Aby! ...