It Feels Like I'm in a Nightmare, My Niece and Nephews have Grown Up That I Didn't See Them Grow For 15+Years?
I Ever Look At My Fingers And Wiggle It Thinking If I Would Wake-Up From This Nightmare. Am I really in a Projection As a Foetus Looking At Whatever Projected As Some Dreamlike Feelings and Reality Mix Up In Me.
Nightmare like I wrote of missing my ex Then In A Blog Then In A Medication Still, It's Public. What will I Be Doing In My Life? I'm like a Useless Person In My Family, The Only Useless One. Medication Doesn't Create Not Writing of Ex At All? It's not like a Crime? Psychic Been Around For Many Years(Every Year At Ward) Then It Proves I'm Harmless To My Ex and Soulmate I Guess?
Once I Got My Bag, I Definitely Will Go City Hall To Remember Things About My Past, Will I Be Okay? Will It Be December Or October, Even November? It's Truly Hard To Live My Life. My Memory Is Really Like That(Very 15+Years Ago), Will I Recover Next Year? Can It Be Fast Like Half Of A Year? I Definitely Will Try My Luck Like Taking Images of My Location and See If My Ex Will Appear Many Times 1 Day? Or Even If I Have Any Friends, I Don't Have Any Friends At All. I will hangout at hard and easy places to use up the Data I Have Every Month? Live Walking Around Like A Rich? Walking Alone At Esplanade? I Definitely Feel Bored and Dull, Life Been Gone So Many Years Ago Maybe? I'm Just Too Old For Marriage. Even Blogging at My Age Is Quite Surprising Already.
"Dear God, What Should I Do In My Life?" I Pray. I truly feel like a useless person in my family, why am I so far behind everyone? Late-Bloomer? Funny.
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