I hope that I become stronger for my life experiences to be better, maybe it's just this current mood now, other days I will feel better? Maybe it's too early in the morning it's 8.07am now, then I'm blogging, blogging supposed to be afternoon I think or at night.
I don't know how I can be peaceful, is it Meditation? How long does people actually meditate per day?
My diary app. keeps popping up to write, I don't really have anything to write other than the records of 50th and 60th day medication outside ward, just as memory of achievement that I maybe will paste on my wall.
I just creating self-energy to work on Monday about the cleaning assessment, I don't know if will get any $6/hr for it, it's just assessment, I forgot what the occupational therapist said, maybe it's during training only will get $6/hr. It's definitely easy job anyway if it's $6/hr. I just hope my health is fine on that day and other days about jobclub in future. Maybe doctor calculated as Fine then actually it's okay as doctor is a psychic.
Life will be easier 1 day. It's been 20 years long having a difficult schizophrenia maybe in fact it's been since secondary school days. I don't know why my memory came back it's just the weight of life from schizophrenia is a lot.
I want to try learning Iqra now or even memorizing the sounds of Arab Alphabets, then I remember have Mandarin Language too, better Mandarin First and Arab will be focused kind of learning 1 day. It's really 1 year to do this, I definitely can learn Arabic language in 1 year, what if Iqra 1 month each book kind of repeats will I remember too maybe? Total is 12 months, they have 6 books I think. Then I should be able to read Arabic language after that. My goal to become just a Quran reader daily as a peace of mind(as they said reading Quran gives peace) will definitely come true, I really don't know how to get my soulmate is why.
I hope doctor support my learning journey like giving tips etc. definitely psychic knows more of what I need to understand what I want.
This means I have next year all by myself, with jobs to do and not O-Level yet, then I have time to read first about O-Level but then to pray to have the syllabus like bad if "learn wrongly" too, maybe only Mathematics & Science Formula will needed?
What else can I do in life to make it better? I still have no friends yet for my plan of w.w.f.g, it's just an area of interest about the unknown world of entity and ghosts. I really want to know what can be captured, even if usually nothing maybe it's our imagination that scares us? Why do we feel like that anyway?
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