Self-Celebrated 60th Day Not in Ward And Eaten Medications

Just had my McCrispy Just Now, Feels Like New To Ordering, After Ordering to Pay at Register Then Wait For My Meal, I Stand Up Close Waiting for my Meal Instead of Sitting with my Number That I Was Supposed To Do. I Didn't Know Can Sit And Wait As Dah Lama Tak Makan McDonald Outside.

I'm Happy Today is My 60th Day Eaten Medication Not In Ward. I'm Still Unsure If Have To Warded During Change of Medications. I think I will continue taking my medications until I fully recover hopefully next year before my 38th Birthday. I really want to recover fast.

I'm Still Waiting For I.M.H Research to Obtain My $250 For Helping the Research, Means I Will Be Feeling Penniless, Having Only $140+ left in my Bank To Survive in November Too With It. Then I Remember My Mother is Going to Indonesia Kampung Don't Know If Will Leave Me Money At Home.

I know why I experience like "after N Level" is due to Memory Loss, I kinda reminded of (W) and promises again. I wonder what's going to happen. Means I have judged of continuous sickness then I became healthy at 38 years old to take O Levels, I can't wait for my 38 years old. What would I do during my 37 years old 2025? When's the night bicycling moments going to start? What created me such energy to keep bicycling at night I still wonder why Psychic Doctor didn't tell me other than "Character Build-Up" as Reason(that I must not know too much)? I feel like I'm going to be working from Jobclub and then stop for my O Level next year, I can't wait for this recovery moment. The excitement to recover exist like my memories of wanting to be soldier to be a good man if I will get any salary for soldier during my schizophrenic moments thinking I'm a soldier protecting country. Still have 9 more days to Jobclub.

I somehow feel like buying the $18 Chest Bag at Admiralty when I got my I.M.H Research Money, I wonder when is it. Life keeps thinking of money of why my parents didn't give me other than worried if I would buy a cigarette, my life is different than others, they receive money from parents while I understand a poor life in a 2-Storey House like a richer family still a poor life experience living experience on g.s.t package. Maybe schizophrenia created me not to use my money as I spend and resell, throw before then I don't receive money because of my schizophrenia habits/accidents.

Wonder when I will get to speak to people of my growth in health, like experiencing someone really cares about me, I don't feel anybody care even if eat food at home. I've became normalize in being like a shameless writing of having no money.

I think my next self-celebration is on 100th and 120th Day of Not in Ward. Hopefully I don't have to be warded when changing medications.