Thinking of Imam Mahdi

I Hope He Appear Soon 1 Day, Definitely We Will See The Difference About Muslims That Are Sincere and Not. I really hope to see my Soulmate, he's really a Line Of My Life(Soulmate), a Reason Of Hope That I Can See Her Again.

I Don't know what to do, I Can Only Think of Wali Allah, Psychic and Imam Mahdi To Get My Soulmate, I Don't Know Why The Reason Have To Be "Baby Will Sick If Too Early", Life Can Really Be Other Way, If Use Imam Mahdi As Goal That We Meet, I Won't Have Baby Definitely? Can Psychic and Wali Allah Do This? I Really Want To Meet Imam Mahdi As Miss My Soulmate, Thinking of Him Makes My Soulmate Reachable in My Sight(That Muslims Will Somehow Meet 1 Day and I Will See Her).

I Don't Know Why I Practiced "Ali Ibn Abi Thalib", it was Same As Mufti Menk's Statement, Similar Definition, Then I Let Them Go, It's Hard To Not See My Soulmate, The Comfort In My Heart is Real When She's Around.

I Really Want a Perfect Life With My Soulmate, Then If Imam Mahdi Can Appear Faster In My Life I Then Feel My Soulmate As Closer To Me. Doctors and Wali Allah Can Claim Like Sake of Imam Mahdi I Don't Have A Baby Yet And I Meet My Soulmate? Can This Happen?

Both Statement of "Ali Ibn Abi Thalib and Mufti Menk" Made Me Let Them Go, Won't I Be Getting My Soulmate Back Sooner? How Can Someone in Love Really Let Them Go? Why Did I Do It? The Pain Was Too Much Too. It's Like Imagining Palestine Praying for The Attacks To Stop, Then I Keep Missing My Soulmate. It was Because of My Difficulty Too As Easiest Reason I Feel They Will Be Healthier and Stronger Without Me, I Kept Losing Memory Anyway.