At JOD Sometimes appear jobs at i.m.h it looks fun imagining if psychic just decide our life as know everything the best for us, how can my life be like that too? I'm still able to decide things on my own I have chosen(finally) to be on medications and maybe I shouldn't be thinking of jobs but jobclub would think for me. I hope this will be the end, just 1 year for my mind to merge should be enough for recovery, then I maybe won't lose memory anymore but normal memory like others.
How doctor sticks to my life since my first time in I.m.h, I forgot a lot of things that happened? Can I be fine this time, it's really a finally thing as I have decided to take medications properly? Recovery age said as 38, then what will happen during jobclub? It's just next year, then what will I do about My O Level, can doctor answer this too I really feel no life waiting for jobclub as the only best solution left as it's doctor's decision on where is believed that I can work at. I cant learn ownself before the year I take O Level? It can't be this year that I start learning something?
The energy to do well in life came back, does my parents know I used to be high score in N Level before I was warded then in the end just passing N Level normally?
I feel like scoring high again for my O Level as decided medications will help maintain my life for what I aim for.
Will I be well?
I hope I won't be warded anymore as taking my medications correctly. The memory like gone and thinking of future came back, like what it's supposed to be like, like a regret if I didn't do what I want in life.
I aim to live in U.S.A one day means I want to do well in my education, I wonder when they will start talking about this then doctor? I want to feel what the Americans feel like living their life there, it's like a happier journey can happen if I pass my O Level then A Level maybe? Schizophrenia paused my ability to think well and can't work, so I couldn't learn well at that time, I definitely don't want to be too late in life. I want a stable job too, will doctor help me until I get a stable job?
What must I do to be healthy says doctor is truly just take medications, what other can I do to stick to jobclub and medication as my main focus in life? What about keto diet idea like the person that recovered from schizophrenia was doing keto diets?
I hope this all ends fast and I really play world of warcraft with doctors etc. I really want my normal life back somehow, I can't know how to get my soulmate but I tried blogging as a way to maintain in their eyes.
Will I finally get to become a Soldier or not? My schizophrenic life been thinking I'm a soldier for so long, the pain was real heartache then I end up like a useless person just taking medication and hearing the same about just to work even repeatedly going to the same workplace and work again.
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