How spending my life from 20 years old to 37 years old for 17 years is not wasting life? Why doctor didn't let me try hacking earlier in life? I really can't find even woodlands friends of mine - Din, Sadiq, Razli on Facebook, wonder if they are married and have children already. I know 1 Day Din and Sadiq will become Wali Allah said by Wali Allah, then Razli is Unknown maybe the same too.
Why after knowing so much there's no special something for me to do to feel healthy? Then I don't remember anything about them for now. In the past in Woodlands, we are usually always 4 people, then it became me and Din then Sadiq and Razli, our life became different, I have schizophrenia can't feel life like theirs. They are normal while I'm hot most of the time, the anger from schizophrenia is painful and heartaching.
I wonder why I forgot what age they will become Wali Allah and what will they do too. It's schizophrenia meant to experience memory loss. Then nothing interesting to write for now.
Why didn't my family belanja me what's healthy for my future babies, Chicken Chop with Tomato Rice? I think December then I start being able to get it again, continuously until January, it will definitely be fun, hopefully January like I can secretly meet (S) somehow - I Remembered about X and Wassup Shirt Plan of (S) then I become having a reason to meet (S) if she buy me the X 3/4 T-shirt that I will pay for it, it's a Plan in M.R.T, I was looking at Lazada yesterday then saw it again then remembering again.
Anyway back to the Wali Allah Story, I wonder if they will meet me if they become Wali Allah, where will I see them? When will I see them again? I feel like still young despite 37 years old like hanging out is actually part of normal life. How am I going to become a normal man that just work and earn then spend around, I feel like hanging out still. I remember the 2nd time someone ask for Money "due to losing ezlink card", the same method, means it's 1 year long and he did the same tactic for money, it's tempting to try something like that for money but I don't want to be a beggar too.
Right now I feel like cooking rice or even eating Curry Tuna, then eating Barbeque Chicken with Rice in my imagination, my Mother Puasa so she not cooking yet, I wonder how will I be okay it's only 12P.M and it's the best that can happen to my life? Doctor knows things like if I will Smoke or not such thing if I remember correctly, means Doctor knew my life then this is the only best thing that can happen to me? Why doctor can't I get a $6/hr kind of job, do I really have to do probation period of jobclub then a job allowance of $6/hr? I just remembered today of going to the bank to change my Phone Number at Bank. I think I will go after eating.
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