Emotion

Listening to Radio Warna Then Thinking Why My Life Still Like This, As Fact I Maybe Have Lost People and Time in Life, What I Just Have To Do Is Recover From Schizophrenia, This Sickness Seems Forever To Heal, Just Now I Was Feeling Angry Too, Because The Medicine Was Finishing In My Body, I Boil Up Easily.

Why does anger means require love, I think I can't get what I love in a way people don't remind me stuff, soulmate and matter of relationship, then other is the baby sick everytime could be just a story because I am schizophrenia, nobody really cares about my wish.

Intention of blog is really to be writing about Soulmate, 37 years old is too much already, I can't rely on psychic to get what I want to as don't know what the psychic prioritizes, if it's really about my wish or just helping something about my health recovery.

I don't know how to move on writings at public chatroom made me like a nuisance or nonsensical person nobody would believe or be burdened by my schizophrenia, I really am too late to get anyone in life I just wish I recover from schizophrenia able to work.

The popularity of a nonsensical man like exist in my imagination, such image and news, making me a bad luck person, the energy for life will think of Islam and Peace then I can't obtain it properly(the peace), I think people just let me far from my soulmate because of secretly liking me sad and loss of life.

I don't know why I can't recover and why losing memory is good, knowing something as the fact of life that I dislike, I grew for 17 years becoming a nothing-man.

Radio Warna reminds me of puasa and "doing the same as (S)"(moment of buka) could be it that she listens to radio too. I really can't get anyone to be nice to me before 1 year of medications?

I really hope I can become a psychic, or find a good psychology book to read as my self-restrengthening.

I'm just feeling okay to be alone, I know I can't get anyone else and life have to be this way, I know life have became 37 years old and not married yet, I think I'm just becoming a worker type of person that earns and live life in sadness that's all.