I've missed alot of days like 10 Days Missing Mandarin Language. Today I Learnt: kanjian = saw, xiansheng = Mr., fengzhong = minutes.
Means I Managed to Learn More Vocabularies Today.
The Jackpot Feelings is Only When I've Completed HSK 2 Of Mandarin Language, They Have Around 30 Too I think, So It's Like 30 Days Too. I Hope I Complete It By December, Then Focus On Iqra In January. I Wonder If I Will Do Well.
My Life Still Missing (S) Badly While She Works and Live Her Life Like Nothing Thinking Of Me, Why The Thinking of Life Special Moments with Her Can't Happen Is Because I Will Become Bad Person If I'm With Her Too Early, Did She Thought of This Too And Actually Accepted My Love, Then If a More Than 10 Years is Long Distance Relationship if She Decide To Give Me Her Photos in Laptop or Android As Gift To Me 1 Day, Isn't It Something Special Already For Me or She Treating Me To Be Someone Special Already?
Why Is Drug the Only Way in Life If I Was With Her Earlier? I Can't Be Stable Without Jobs That I Can't Do? Drugs is the Easiest To Think Of Just Receiving Message, Sending Drug and Then Taking $, Then I Decided Not To Become a Drug Seller/Syndicate/Businessman Still Won't Work If I Meet Her Early I Still Would Become This? It's Said by Psychic. I've Done Well For Over 15 years Didn't Become a Druglord at All.
The Memory of M.R.T Reminded Me Of "Green Knight" Was A Baby and I Read Said As 16 Years Old, Maybe It's 16 Years Ago As Fact and Not 17 Years Ago, I Remember The Story of "Green Knight" is That He Will Commit Suicide, Then My Beliefs of American Will Change Like "American Really Will Commit Suicide?", "They Are Not Psychic Power As Soulmates?", Suddenly Feeling Different Like Understanding If We Are Enemies of Someone, We Won't See Them in Akhirat Anymore Because Islam Have 73 Paths and Only 1 Way Is The Right Way. Means I Truly Never Want To Become Enemy of My Soulmate (S). I Remember I Was Carrying "Green Knight" On M.R.T Because Strangers Suddenly Talk To Each Other Then I Recite The: Lailaha illallah Al Maliqul Haqqul Mubin, Muhammadurrasullullah Sodiqul Wa'dil Amiin. I Wonder What Was Happening To Me, The Parents Of "Green Knight" Wanted Me As Their Foster Child. Then Even After More Than 15 Years, They Still Keep Their Promise and "Green Knight" Appear in Super Mech Bot Chatroom Being A Nice Person Giving Tokens Away. It's the same As Their Promise: "Green Knight"(Their Baby's Nickname/In-Game Name) Will Play "Super Mech Bot" And I Will See Him Online 1 Day.
Why Do Someone Remember Promises So Well Like That, It Remind Me Like I Think of My Soulmate Even If I Loss Memory Until This Year, About M.R.T, I Really Been Living Life Thinking I Have Never Told Her My Feelings Or Have The Chance To Talk To Her, Then Sudden Relief That I Actually Have Told Her is In My Memory. It's Special.
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