Feel stucky, dark vision and imagining my future about what Doctors have ever said, will I really go U.S.A at 38 Years Old? Work with my Soulmate as Her Partner At Workplace? Why at that time it's not Soldier Job? What happen about working "idea of my grandfather if he makes a business", will it be next year until 38 years old then? I really want to live life normally not feeling like dead everytime, just now it was too much then suddenly it's been the spikes getting my life I think. I really can't do anything about it.
I hope a job happens to be easy for me, doctors didn't really tell what's going to happen to me at 37 years old except telling to take medicines I guess, I wonder when all information going to happen to my life?
Doctor knew death stories too, I'm still a bit shocked at how actually I don't know my family members for so long then stories of death matching doctor's saying, everyone knew except me? I was the only one remembering on the day of death itself?
Thinking of my nephew Jafni did he really have a Japanese Girlfriend too, like stories of Japanese have Muslims is like real too. I know whatever it is he will in the end become A Wali Allah as said by doctor, whatever I dream bad of person, they will become knowing like a Wali Allah(if a girl), I wonder if I will become Wali Allah at really 38 years old then. Means My Siblings Will Become Knowledgeable like Wali Allah too.
I wonder what happened to us at that time why everyone become like psychic 1 day? Doctor can't be lying like knowing death stories because Doctor is psychic.
Why is it so long for me to have my Soulmate especially? Soulmate doesn't know I'm her Soulmate? Why it's like nothing appearing in my life because people know of death stories and something to be sad about too? Means me taking medications is not really something to be happy about because it's been too long?
What is going to happen to my life, it's soon December then I'm 38 in 2026, I don't want to be too late having babies? My nephew like Jafni Age is so far ahead if I have babies too late. Then Dina is maybe 20 Years Old and Aqmar 15 Years Old? I'm so late in life, I just want to marry with (S) I think. My life is like meaningless without her, all the waiting and effort will be wasted? Doctors told me she will accident if marry others and her face will be ruined if have babies with others, then I lose my soulmate? Why I have to feel the pain of all these? I really have no one to be with for so long in life?
I wonder why she just don't want to marry me and have babies late because babies will be sick everytime as story of doctors? I really want something to happen to my life next year, like flow of money, the difficulty is too harsh then I'm so loss without my Soulmate. Wonder why she is like this for so many years in life, isn't it a waste of time that my life been meaningless for so many years?
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