Just hope for the end of pain

It's weird imagination thinking of my future, I really can't do anything, life would've been different if there's no internet but because of it I write Stuff at Plato, Facebook, Super Mech Bot Chat, #whitehat #blackhat freenode dalnet efnet - Schizophrenia really made me nonsense then they really risked my life again to get me warded maybe, such hypocrite and I don't know how Doctors will help me - is the help really more than just giving medications to eat daily? Am I prioritized to be cared?

It's like a memory that's permanent that happens and what would my Facebook be like when announce my recovery? The help definitely must be posts from Nurses at least telling people I have recovered and having to add me on Facebook?

Will it becomes News that "Schizophrenia can Be Recovered" that will definitely support me after my recovery at 38 years old? It looks the same just medication, I really like taking it. My worries exist in daily life that because of what they did: risking my life with internet - isn't it really like a fool?

What makes doctors confident it is okay, why it's something people don't remember? They like wanting to add secret stress to happen to me. Recovery as my goal I hope my mother don't accidentally lock her door again for my medicines to be on time.

It's like a plot because I think it happened the same last year - why such thing to remember vocab "Suntricity", she said she forgot because of old age.

I don't believe my mother forgets things easily, she have good memory. Why did the same thing happen again, doesn't this make me believe "Suntricity Exist" too?

How do doctors finish the stalkers or pests in my life that maybe uses voices and scripts? Does all schizophrenic experience different voice or vocab/statement heard? It's like "Palestine"(when speaking "Pales-tine[as in Time]") I heard like "Anas Qai" instead. Then it makes me increase volume then heard as "Palestine" won't they create schizophrenics to attack me instead and they become used?

There must be evidence that schizophrenics are actually normal people too and can enter prison so people judge and understand schizophrenia deeper that "Normality Exist".

Wonder why it's like a Challenge in Life Happens To Me, like I'm experimented if Mentally Strong or Not as Fact. Isn't Mental Strengthening From Learning Psychology? I should Increase My Mental Strength Too.

Doctors really have nothing to say but "just eat medicine", I didn't have time to tell doctors of the stress In Chatrooms, but maybe he knew it too.