Maybe Secretly Nothing Kind Of Man This Year?

Maybe this year I'm nothing until 38 years old, means I will work like "Cleaning Matters"? I really want a Soldier Job causing the energy of life like painless sometimes?

What is making my life suffering it's like something stuck kind of feelings? During primary school and secondary it was something about hotness too, what is it the rage about, it's like rage feelings means lack of love if easily angry means need love?

Is it really Schizophrenia create heat by temperature from Anger?

The ideas to imagine marriage as the end how the heart is like that? Can a power happens that soulmate is soulmate's knowledge?

I really don't believe marriage occur even, to impact harassment act but isn't it attack-movement to express as marrying, then matter of psychic police and soulmate, why they want to rely on harassment act? When will lie detector happens? It's the best way in my life.

What's weird is negotiation of my life is like in someone's hand, not what kind of help I ask for, isn't me the one seeking help first, planning to study, then feeling stupid as other answer as "actually stupid and result shows"? Isn't it schizophrenia?

Isn't it creation of time for soulmate to not be together? Then pretending as going with the flow of my interest "suddenly" due to schizophrenia, love is schizophrenia?

How can I remember so many like "voice-senders" exist to remind me of talks, then if it's really the delusion or hallucination part kind of voices? Isn't it that vocab "voices" makes enemies happier? Why are they pretending not knowing my life?

Is this happening longer in life due to money? It's maybe a pull-to-harass kind of movement?

I end up not knowing whose reader and whose answering me because the readers are not the one who cares must be, "just take medicine" is answer of doctor means my family need not tell something else, doesn't this mean include jobs too as fact?

What if someone ever failed in a Life plan then wanting to plan my life like thinking it is as okay if entering ward?

If feel painful why other Illness is not discovered for so long doesn't this mean mental illness is seen as nothing physical because will believe like such due to the grammar definition it's "mental not physical" then they see my answer as actually meaningless? Isn't it backup from loss of soulmate to be continued from own family?

This means nobody helping me.