Others Are Like If Have Children With (S), All Will Become Psychics.
Others Like Become A Soldier I Guess It's December, November There's No News At All Sadly, This Year Hopefully The End, I Want To Take My O-Level "Because If Result Speaks", People Really Don't Know I Was 100 Score At N Level Before I Relapsed? Why People Don't See Me As Intelligent? They really want me to do Cleaning?
N-Level I Wasted My Time Like I Was On Spree Of Scoring 100 Then Suddenly I.M.H, Then 70+ In Mathematics, Even if Still Top in Class I Became Unhappy Too. Why can't I Speak Of My Past, It's Something I'm Proud of Like I'm Actually "Potential Successful Person" As Fact By My Scorings, Then In The End, Due To Missing A lot of Class For 1.5Months, My N-Level Only Pass With 4(For Mathematics), And The Rest Except English As 2.
How Can Allah Do This To Me? I'm a High-Scorer Then I Suddenly Become Normal Man in My Country, I Was Feeling Supposedly To Be Top 3 In Singapore. I Don't Like This Outcome At All.
I Don't Know If A Dream Or Loss My Certificates, It's Like I Cut Them Up, Losing It. I'm Definitely Sad About My Scores.
In Quotes To Not Be Telling If Achieving A Success, Then I Did Not Tell Then I Still Just Normal Pass Too Because of Schizophrenia.
I Know I Did My Best At N-Level With Missing 1.5Mths of Class, I Joined Back In August, Why I Didn't Make It To Be In The Top Scorer Status, I Was Thinking I Would Be Famous! Allah Really Let This Happen To Me And "Let Me Get Schizophrenia"?! Why Is He Like That?
Why Can't I Become A Soldier? I Know I Can't Work Yet, Was It Just A Dream Or Such Conversation Really Existed? It's Definitely December This Year if Not A Dream, Worse It Can Be Is December Next Year Or Even June Next Year As Estimation, Why It's So Long "To Be In Status As A Stable Man"? Why is My Life Really Hard By My Family On Purpose, Like A Discipline To Believe, I Can't Shop Much Anymore Like The End Of Life Plans, Having To Wait For G.S.T Package, The Sudden Sadness. Then I Can't Sleep To Prove Sad Because "Sleep is Due To Sadness", Means They Don't Know I'm Sad, I Definitely Did Not Cry.
What Makes Them Not Tell Me Where To Look For My Soulmate? To Pretend Understanding That Baby Will Become Sick Everytime, It's Until 17 Years Long That They Didn't Tell Me?!
Why is This Good At All? My Feelings Unverified and Not Confirmed Of My Future, That I Maybe Have Someone That Will Be At Effort. This is Too Long.
Even Stories of "Wali Allah Can Heal On The Spot", Such Thing Didn't Happen To Me Too? How Other Schizophrenics Are At Peace While I'm Like This.
My Legs Feels Heavy Just Now Anyway I Don't Know Why It's Like Lifting A Stone. Is It Schizophrenia or Too Much Walking?
It Didn't Feel Like My Neighbours Read It's Weird, But It's Like Same Occurrences As Last Year Too.
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