I Remember The Plans of 400GB Data To Use It, Then I Have Nobody Still To Go Out With, Then My Knee-Level Pants Too I Bought For Fishing, Like In The End I Have No Confidence To Fish At All.
It's Like A Life Memory Loss, It's 25 November So Soon Already 10 Days Past My Last Reset of Phoneline Data, Life is Really Fast.
My Mind Like "In the Air" Kind of Floating Feeling, Sometimes Sandy I Imagine Spike In Brain Blood Then Not Out Of Brain Area, And Also At Heart(Heart Keeps Jerking Maybe It's a Thick Spike). Jerk is a Physical Movement, Why I'm Not Allowed To Just Rest At Home As Priority and Not Work?
I Don't Know What To Do I Feel Catatonic.
Why is My Body Like This Is It Because Of Missing Someone? Is It Because I'm LoveSick And Supposed To Be Dead(Fall, Jerk, Stuck) But Alive? I Really Can't Help Myself Just Feeding Cold Water/Drink And Trying To Make Myself Happier.
The Hunger Is Real And My Mother Didn't Cook Rice Yet Makes Me Wonder Why, But I Don't Mind I Just Drink Cold Water Anyway. I'm Trying To Have A Clear-Thinking Then It's Hard, I Would Definitely Be More Stable if Smoke Like A Soldier Needed Cig.? I Wonder How To Get The Money Then, To Work As What? Dishwasher? Should I Just Work As Dishwasher? The Story of 38 Years Old Until 41 Years Old Having $50K, Is It I Work As Dishwasher At 37 Years Old Then? Will I Be Fine Like This? Feel Like Just Wanting To Try Jobs At Findjobs Application, And Work As Dishwasher. There's Also Dishwasher Slots In Facebook Group, I Wonder If I Should Do It. There's Also A Bakery Job $9.50/Hr but usually they ignore me anyway since long time ago, all Bakery never responded me before.
Wonder why I'm so smart but just normal kind of Jobs, it's because haven't recovered yet? Soldier Job is so long then I Already Feel Ambitious, Then it's a Psychic Knowledge That The Government Didn't Announced Yet, I'm So Happy Then It Could Be Next Year June Instead, 38 Years Old?
I Think of Looking At Jobs Again Thinking How I Can Be Fine, I Know Doctor Maybe Want Me To Rest and Not Work, But I Need/Want Money I Keep Searching For Jobs, I Hope Doctor Can Just Help Me Find Something Like A Nice Job At Factory: Zagro, I used to work here last time it's so fun and easy. I really can't work again at Sony too, it's fun too at there. I feel like applying the Chocolate Job that uses Safety Shoes, that's definitely painful it makes me wonder why or how people work with it. I really have no life doctors should help me find a job that's not Jobclub so I earn more and fast? Why sometimes I feel healthier then I can become energetic to want to work, sometimes catatonic then I don't feel like working at all. Doctors must really settle my Catatonia.
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