Remembering About Plato & Sakinah

I remember during my N.S Days someone with Nick as Sarah Sunita will add Me in Plato then Today She's Only Close to 250 Days In Plato, The Nick Christineha same Info as Her Is 840 Days In Plato, I Remember Epul was the one who said That To Not Accept the Friend Request of Sarah Sunita or It's Bad Life For Me, Means She's From Him?

Another is In M.R.T When I Met Sakinah, Holygyatt was Heard, The Nickname in Plato is Only 267 Days, Then I Heard Of Her 16-17 Years Ago In M.R.T, Psychic Really Know Details Of Who Will Passby My Life. I wonder how Psychic Do That? There's No Interesting Stories of Psychic Except From Myself?

I Then Wonder If I Should Just Add Sarah Sunita or Epul Claimed As "Will be Friend With Nazi if Don't Add Her", Who Doesn't Want To Friend and Train Like A Nazi Soldier? Then I Didn't Accept the Friend Request, Remembering Epul In Mind About Her. The Rule is About Not Adding Someone That's Married.

Today is the Most Difficult Day As Cig. To Quit Until Next G.S.T/Assurance Package Money To Receive As Have No More Money in Life, My Life's Luck Is Like That. I'm Really Out of Cash. I'm Planning How To Forget Sakinah Why She Just Let Out Answers Like "She's Attached" At That Time? What About My Feelings Thinking She's My Soulmate? Why Didn't She Really Care? Will She Wait for Imam Mahdi As My Last Request to Her is To Get Her The Real Soulmate? Will She Believe Me That She's My Soulmate? Am I In A Delusion? Will I Recover From Missing Her Too Much? Will I Remove Her Picture with Me On My Facebook Profile?

I Don't Think Doctor is Really Helping Me Like How I Wish, If To Think Of Babies Again, They Just Worry Baby Become Sick Everytime But Don't Care How I'm Far Apart From Sakinah For So Long.

My Life Been Just Wanting Her Since Kindergarten Like There's No Other Girl in the World. I Don't Know If I Can Make It But I Have To Forget Her Somehow, Schizophrenia Makes It Difficult For Me I Think. What Should I Do In Life? I Feel Like Just Start Learning Iqra In December But Have The Cleaning Training From Jobclub Anyway, Don't Know If It Will Be A Nice Feeling. It's Only Nice If It's Just Focus On Medication For 1 Year and There's No Job To Be Stress About. My Mother Wants Me To Work Without Caring If I'm Healthy or Not It Seems She Just Want Me To Become Normal Like As If I Don't Want To Be Normal Life.

Tomorrow Is The Reset Of My Sim card Line Then It's $10 Deduction Until December 15 I Think, Life Feels Good If I Have Money To Go Out And Try Enjoy My Life Thinking of Things Like Arcade? Or Even Buy Myself a Handheld Game?

I Remember Plans Like Feeling The Outdoor To Remember How To Buy Food With The New Way, To Familiarize Life With What's Happening Outside, I Guess It's Just Talks And I'm Just Hopeful For a Life Kind Of Feelings. I've Bought Food From McDonalds And To Pay At The Cashier After Printing Order Slip, I Still Can Manage "without Training". I Wonder How Life Is After 20 Years Since 17 Years Old, I Still Loses Memory Until This Year and Month Remembering Sakinah Again, I Don't Know How She Just Live Life With Someone Else Like Not Caring I've Waited Since Kindergarten and Then Making Me Feel Impossible To Get Her At All. I Wonder If I Should Remove Her Photo with Me At All Or It Can Really Be The Cause Of Her Messaging Me On Facebook or Phone?

Don't Know Why Nobody Felt Anything Heavy It's Since Kindergarten Now I'm This Age, Sakinah Getting Older Too, They Didn't Try To Get Her For Me At All. "Attached" Common Sense is Not The Point, It's Communication That's Late That's All, Even If People Say If Meant To Be Ours Will Be Ours, Something Else Can Happen Faster Will Always Be Better, Like Praying To God To Stop Fixing Time If She's Mine And Just Let Me Spend My Time With Her. Then Family Made Me No Money, And Knowing I Can't Work They Will Claim As "Don't want to work" Instead, Letting Me Feeling Difficulty In Life, I Just Have No Idea Why They Are Like That To Me.