Boring

My mother talks or marrying sepupu I don't know what it means, definitely I won't do such thing as I think it's merepek, I thought sepupu means cousin, really make me bad mood because the girl I want is (S), it's meaningless my tries she just sit at home and eating kerepek banana now really lazy and I feel angry about it. My mother really not helping maybe should just give up and m*sturbate at (S)'s mother imagination when I see her during hari raya at bedok reservoir. Stupid life.

My family not truly helping I guess they just being this way on purpose, I really don't care now like (S) really did not effort to make me healthy anyway, like why should she effort when she actually tunang many years ago, I think if finish the potential ties is still a better feeling like knowing why I myself won't marry her because wanting family perfection.

I think it's stupid her talks to talk of marry sepupu, she really doesn't want to help me at all letting me go through this life like this.

Everyday it's hungry feeling it's unstoppable kind of life experience it's got to be like this repetitively like training to puasa, as half day puasa is 12pm then they doing it on purpose nowadays, I thought my mother going to cook jemput2 Pisang but in the end did not anyway.

Dunno why she idea on stupid topic like this, we all know common sense that family can't get married but she talks nonsense like that, it means our family will be going to hell in my imagination, it's like on purpose to anger my heart. Like I have no brains.