Bought Boxers And Oversized T-Shirts

Bought 3 Plain T-Shirts Because I Kept Wearing the Same And I Feel It's Too Small, It's Also Planned For Jogging And I Feel Like I Will Jog Again 1 Day, I Just Need To Not Walk So Much So My Legs Won't Be In Pain So I Can Jog, I Didn't Buy The Shoes For Nothing.

I Also Bought Boxers But Not Putting Image Here, Hahahaha.

Lazada Item is Cheap Even The Nike Longsleeve I Saw As $9+, But I Didn't Buy It, It Looks Strong I Hope The Material Lasts Long.

I Am Still In A bit of Panic About Ashes Thrown Like That It Pile Up And Became A lot of Dusts. I Hope Doctors Really Settle it For Me And I Only Get Nothing Or 2nd Warning At Least, I Really Imagine It As Bad And I Know Maybe Require Acknowledgement But My Mother or Father if Raise Voice it's Painful in My Heart, The Heat In My Heart Increases and I Become Mentally Sick(Unstable) Because It's Physical Pain I Think It's Called As Catatonia.

I Hope Law Have A Nicer Solution Like Settling It At Doctors Straight Away, I Really Don't Like To Take The Shock, It's Only Ashes Anyway.

I Really Want A Job At Popeyes Straight Away Without Job-Training At Jobclub I Hope, I Really Want My Life Normal Again, The Happiness of Taking Medication I Don't Want It Cut Down By Warning Because of Ashes, I Don't Know Why It's Like This But Everytime I'm Happy About Something, Something Unlucky May Happen in My Life And Usually It Happen, If No Anger from Law or Parents Maybe It's The First Time It's Different, Is It A Psychic of Bad Future Experience Being Known By Me, The Bad Feeling If After Too Happy?

I Really Don't Know How To Settle This, To Listen is Like Tiring Police Anyway, If Consider Like I Know Psychic Will Contact Law, Can't This Be Like An Acknowledgement And Guaranteed That I Won't Do It Again? I Hope Can, I Truly Understand The Ashes Have Piled Up To Become Too Much Dusts. Maybe Wind Blew To Neighbour's Downstair's House Anyway And Sometimes Tornado Keep Spinning the Ashes?

Anyway It Feels Weird Like I Feel I Have Ever Done This Before, Like I Have Ever Bought MIG T-Shirt Before and Post on Blog in the Past.

I Know 1 Of Doctor's Story is I Will Meet (S) When I Work At Popeye She Will Request A Recommended Meal For Her and Her Niece, I Truly Hope I Meet Them 1 Day, I Truly Miss Her Like My Heart Expresses Like Looking At A Beauty I Have Never Seen For So Long. She Don't Understand Why I Feel She's My Soulmate or Maybe She Didn't Care At All That's Why She Was Ever Engaged To "Iman". I Really Feel Sad And Angry And So Worried At That Time Like - She's Really Giving Her Virginity To An Ape-Looking Man? I Was Thinking How To Be Ready of Losing Her, I Imagined She Have A Child With Him Then I Will Grow To Hate Her Forever.

The Memory of Me Knowing Her Is Like Before I Can Even Walk I've Been Dreaming of Her, Then When I Can Walk And Enter Kindergarten, I Saw Her As My Dancing Partner, I've Been Wanting to Search For Her Since Baby Days As Fact I Think Lie Detector Will Help Me, But Why She Doesn't Really Care And Get Engaged?

I Really Felt Hot And Rushes And Lovesick Like Crazy At That Time, Why It's So Long That I Found Her Again?

I Remembered During B.M.C I've Ever Found Her Then I Lost My Memory Because I Was Not Confident To Tell Her I Love Her, At That Time I Still Have (W) I Think, Then I'm In A Mess From Schizophrenia Memory Loss, Then I Thought I Found Her After N.S And Actually We Have Spoken Before During My N.S in M.R.T, That I Lost Memory About, I Kept Worrying It's My Fault For Not Telling Her I Love Her, and I Thought I Haven't Told Her, I'm Not The Kind of Guy That Expresses Love, She's Really The First One I Dare To Talk In Front Of Her Like That(In M.R.T), I Never Approach Girl Outside and Ask For Number or Date, It's Not My Style. I Really Need Number First, Then If It's Smooth I Would Try Because The Conversation is Super Fun.

I Hope I Can Meet Her Soon And Somehow Job-Training Be Skipped To Working For Popeyes Straight Away, It's Definitely At Woodlands M.R.T, That's the Closest Popeyes Here. I Really Want To Be A Normal Person That Earns Money, But I Still Wonder and Sad How I Don't Have Computer For So Long, Like Why Doctor Don't Let Me Hack For So Long, I Could've Hack And Do Something Else? Maybe it's Rasullullah(s.a.w)'s Teaching: No Spying?

Maybe Doctor Wanted Me To Practice This Hadith?

Maybe I Really May Accident Into Spying a Soviet Union Is Why Doctor Stopped Me? I Really Don't Want Trouble With Them or Accidentally Offend/Injure Their Life Too.

I Hope My Family Would Give Me Money Sooner Than 38 Years Old, I Really Want To Buy A Computer and Have Back A Computer Life, Contacting People Again, I Definitely Will Try Contact CripperZ's Leader Again. It's Weird How I Feel I Plan Of The Nickname C[r|p]Z Myself Then Suddenly CripperZ Appeared, It's Like A Gangster "CripZ Per", My Reason of Choosing Such Name is [r|p] to Think of Death(Rest In Peace), Then I Like Crispy(Crisp) Food, And "Crib" Vocabulary Too, Other Is "C" To Be "See" and "Z" To Think of My Father's Name. To Remember I'm His Son That When I Chat Not To Ruin Family's Name. It Definitely Seem Like I Copied "CripperZ Prodigy", Then I Can't Use That Nickname Anymore. It's Also When After I've Chat With Girls, I Want Them To Message Me Again At That Same Nick. I Really Can't Do Anything My I.R.C Life Seems Destroyed Just Like That But They Don't Mind And We Became Alliance. Then Another Spoiler, "CripperZ" Nickname Was Used By Someone Else, Then It May Become Like I "Copied Too". Sad.

The Person Uses Hax In Counter-Strike and Leader of Counter-Strike CripperZ Clan I Was In [e.1](Evolution Of New Elites/Elites Of New Evolution). Boring The Clan Name Idea Was Mine Doesn't It Prove I Didn't Copy "CripperZ Prodigy". I Hope Nobody Ever Confused Me Of Copying Like Leader Of Counter-Strike of "CripperZ Prodigy".

I'm Really Creative And It's Really To Remember My Family "In Whatever I Do". Remembering Death is To Remember Islam.

And If People Like To Disturb Me They Would Call Me "Anak Zainal" I Think, Then I Wanted To Imagine Them "To See Zainal"(My Father), Something Like That When They Talk Stuff, If They Dare To Talk Nonsense Or Not, To Create Fear In Their Heart If Imagine Such Idea Is Read That Way By Someone Else That Will Push Them To See My Father.