Don't Feel Nice

My Arm is Bad It's Stiff and I Can't Raise It, I Hope It Subside in 1 Week, I Really Can't Move my Left Arm Without Support From My Right Ever Since the Injection.

Today I Don't Feel Nice Because Have a "No Smoking" At The Staircase, I've been Smoking There Then I Forgot About Can't Smoke I Think It's my 2nd Time, I Lost Memory Due to Schizophrenia. Today Morning Like Hear Police Radio Outside My Room Window Waking Me Up Then I Didn't Go Down. Police Definitely Going to Warn Me About No Smoking At There, Even if Maybe Psychic Have Told It's Me, Psychic Knows Somehow. I can't do anything my left arm in pain and then trouble with the Ashes I think piled to become too many.

I hope it's fast and easy. Messy life I became like overthinking about my life, in the past it was just a quick warning I hope it's the same, I really forgot is why, wonder why it's not normal the ashes didn't go into the hole but stack instead at staircase level 9. Wind and Rain didn't blow it to go there. I feel uneasy and panic again for this.

Today I feel full even if only eaten packet food, air fried breads, and instant tomyam, then today have packet food from my father I think. Maybe in the afternoon, I feel like wanting to sleep my pain away but I think Police will come for another quick warning. It's my 2nd time I hope no summon, my luck in life like this but doctors knew then I wonder why I did it and have to listen to warning again, like an acknowledgement I think.

I've been taking medication well and I feel like I should be getting easy life support from my family but I think they waiting for 38 years old, I really have to be Patient for money. My left arm in pain anyway I wonder how I can work for jobclub after each injection sometimes it's painful for a long time.