Don't know why I became a nothing man even with being Top in "Whose got the Biggest Brain?" Game, it's real intelligence anyway that game, guess I really will have to work at McDonald's it looks easy just set-up the trays for numbers and even plastic packing for delivery or take-away.
My arm recovery definitely will take a long time it's really painful like I can't work yet or even ride a bicycle then it means I can't check for Pallet Job yet, I wonder what to do.
Is life really let be to be like this? Why (S) is focusing on job and niece and not me? Won't she want to have a life if always working it's happier that I know she don't really layan guys much, but then didn't she get engaged before? Means actually I am nothing to her. Even if psychic story she will accident if have baby with someone else, it makes certain that feelings for her can be gone, her face will be ruined from the accident then in a special way that I would reject, because I would love her whatever accident happens to her, then it becomes wrong. Why she didn't think like we will never meet again if she gets married to other people? Like Islam is a 1 Path out of 73 As the Right Way then it becomes either she or me that's going to Hell. Means I definitely would Do something that makes a 100% that she won't meet me again? It's like M*sturbating to picture of Hers and Her Bloodline, it's weird I have to chase her until talking this way, she definitely understand what I mean that I feel we won't meet again as fact, she let me go through this when I worry of her strength and health, that I have schizophrenia so I give psychic to give her the fullest health available then my body suddenly in pain again in I.M.H that I dont mind because I love her. When I think again I don't think she cares as she ever got engaged with someone else. Wondering why she did that to me. But my win is still she was left alone in M.R.T as "Iman" went to M*sturbate when he's angry I talk to her, I called him a gayboy something like that. It's like The Story of Gayboy N.S.F Police paying teenagers for S*x then his name have "Muhammad" in Front, definitely going to hell. If education qualification really makes entry to heaven, then it's the reason my memorizing of Asma-Ul-Husna 99 Names of Allah feeling nothing still or not heavenly(Heaven On Earth)? Definitely I have memorized and secured a true path of Islam. Why she don't fear splitting with me someone she knows Since Kindergarten?
I also don't know why Allah made me love her to endure all these for 31 years long? I really don't know where to search for girls anymore. Did she think I'm a bad person, didn't my Suntricity Science during my Schizophrenia really helped her be stronger in life? It creates a higher comfort to body and doctors and Wali Allah practices it on her, she don't see me as someone special? It's a new Science that Psychic claim as it will become a New Study 1 Day, and I discovered it, am I not someone smart in education 1 day, a Professor of Suntricity Science? It's like Exist Biology, Physics, Chemistry then Mine is Suntricity.
It's something like: ••••••• this dots create peace to a human body somehow removing a lot of pain from body.
Then to win her I have to believe it's really new science and not schizophrenic science? It's a new vocabulary that will appear in Dictionary 1 day Psychic claimed. It's like a medicine must not be red but peaceful and cold colour: green and blue.
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