Yesterday was a lot of anger from voices of the small girl and I can't do anything, only if she didn't speak all those I may be doing something else nicer for my life, as I have to listen it back again like a recording device exist in my hearing senses. I remember I may type what I hear then maybe yesterday happens about it, I really can't do anything I need to feel good.
Today my injection is at 3.10p.m, 1hour ride to i.m.h and back home, my life is really like this? Will I meet (S) 1 day like she will accompany me, maybe not I think? I just wish to be spending time with (S). Even (A) that live near it didn't accompany me, I'm not confident that they actually like me at all but knowing Soulmate, Soulmate really loves me, but why is it like this? Why I was created to believe she didn't look at other guys then actually at that time "is attached" to someone else, isn't it actually looking(can see) other men? I thought her life was like mine, I didn't browse Facebook much to look at girls like I used to at Friendster last time, except only at Random Videos to entertain myself as feeling bored. Was it the Small Girl that psycho my belief to think (S) never looked at other men? Maybe true, she just trying to toy my mind then actually shocked me that (S) is attached when I see the reality. I really can't do anything about it feeling really helpless.
I remember 1 of my Loveletter is a Heart with Jigsaw piece missing, the question at there is "Would you be in Relationship with Me?" Then (S) have to pick "Yes" and fill the Jigsaw piece if she accept my love. I really think this happened before at O.C.B.C. I don't know what happened to the Loveletter, I remember "I've been searching for you since primary school I keep looking at your school when going back home" something like that I wrote in the Loveletter, means I really been loving her since I was 6 Years Old Only.
I really feel energized when I remembered I'm Top Hacker in the World and I Want to Try Working Under Bill Gates(Microsoft), Mark Zuckerberg(Facebook) and Simba Company, I really want this job.
Other Story by Psychic is Hacker Job as a Soldier Attached To: O.C.B.C, I.M.H & S.A.F, I Really want to do well in this Job but it's 38 Years Old Why Is It So Long To Go?
I Don't Know What Job I Will Do I Just Want To Know More About Technology. I Hope I Get Job Somehow But I Wonder What Doctor Would Say To Them For Me. Do I Really Have The Fitness to Keep Working For So Long?
When Will I Remember Everything Too?
I Feel Of Going To A.T.M Then I Think Spending On 1.5L Bottle of Drink And Wait For Going I.M.H at 2P.M Later, My Life Really is Tiring I Think, I Wonder Why It Feels This Way.
3.10P.M Being the Injection Then I Reach Home Around 5P.M? Why is My Life Like Nothing, I Think It's The Medicine Finishing That's Why I Keep Feeling Bad? Catatonia or Anhedonia(Sadness) that Causes Mental Sickness? I'm Really Unhappy About My Life.
Maybe I Would Feel Better Again After The Injection Later.
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