Family Not Impacted

My Niece Dina dah Besar But Her Message Looks Like What Doctor would say, I Imagined Doctor telling her to message like that instead.

I Found Sayyidul Istighfar Like Will Be Good For Me in Future, I Think Of Doing It Multiple Times Like A Zikir For Easier Jobs In Life.

Firstly There's No Proof Like A Zikir or Dua Creates Life Desire To Be Achievable Because I've Been Doing In My Entire Life Since Schizophrenia Pain Especially. I Don't Know Why Tak Kabul But I Really Try To Believe In Zikir A lot More Than Dua, I Don't Know How Wali Allah Manage Life In Mind As "It's the Way". It Looks Difficult How To Get Our Life Desire?

I Found Yesterday "Ya Wahhab" To Get What We Want In Life, I Tried Zikir Abit Then Loss the Momentum I Plan To Be Doing This 1 Day For a Nice Life.

It's Weird How Muslims Believe in Recitation Even if We Don't Get It On The Spot Or Even 10+ Years Late, Isn't Job example really from My Jobclub 1 Day and Not Really Zikir? "Rezeki Ditetapkan Allah" Doesn't it Mean We Don't Really Have To Effort Anything? Should I Try, "Ya Wahhab" To Get (S) Doesn't It Mean If True It Works She Will Become Like a Puppet Sent By Allah Instead? I Plan To "Ya Wahhab" All Day Today Then Tomorrow A lot of Sayyidul Istighfar But Today is Friday - I Feel Doctor Knew I Would Do Which One But Why They Know and I Feel This Way? Like To Zikir or Not?

My Family Seems Not Impacted By The Small Girl's(Her Name in Screenshot) Attack And They Seem To Not Mind I Broke Up, Like Not Caring At All, It's Weird I Had To Feel Fed-Up They Didn't Help Me Get Back (A) To Become In My Normal Life. Reasons of "May Become A Mastermind" is Too Much That It Created My Life To Not Feel A lot of Pleasure in Life.

Thinking About Pleasure I Am Reminded That A Durian Can Cost More Than $10, Then If To Spend Using G.S.T or Assurance Package My Life Support Is Gone, It's Still Like A Sacrifice in Life To Not Feel or Experience Certain Happiness. Usually My Brother is The One That Buys Durian Packet For Me.

I Don't Know Why My Family Like No Feelings, To Get (A) Back In My Life - 17 Years Gone is Like Nothing To Them "Just Because It's Not Their Life", Feeling Alone Doesn't it Create More Hotness To My Body? Why is It More Peaceful if I'm Alone? Didn't they promote the belief like I Am An Orphan as True? Because Nobody Cares To Get Me Back What I Loss In Life? How Can I Forgive Someone That Didn't Hold On To Me? Why Is Everyone Okay About This Life Experience I'm Getting From a Small Girl?

I Think The Small Girl Ever Planned To Attack Until Be Strapped Jacket As To Revenge On Her Boyfriend(I think they broke-up too) To Create Fear To The Doer Then I Have To Experience It When She Comes Back? Why Are They All Like This To My Life? To Think Nothing or Not Speak Of It Isn't It Promoting Schizophrenia To Keep Winning My Thinking? Why Are They Pretending Like Nothing Doesn't it Appear Like I'm Truly Not Cared Of "Because An Orphan"? They Are Promoting the Belief of The Girl's Attack Statement To Seem True.

Dina's Response Really Like A Doctor's Guide/Answer Telling Her To Write That Way. In My Memory is Like That.

Nobody Cared To Strengthen Me With Money Anyway, I Wonder Too Why A Lot of Psychics Wanted Me As Their Son, Is It My Family Really Not Caring About Me At All?

I Feel Like They Just Want Me To Write And They Want To Read It That's All. Stupid Life So Old Yet Feeling Bad Multiple Times From A Small Girl. Don't Know What's The Best Revenge, Hopefully She Experience The Same Heat That I Don't Pity Her At All Due To Her Plotting To Attack Until Be Strapped Jacket. Means Everytime She's Home is a Dangerous Moment.