I remember doctor saying I will play games with 1st and 2nd boyfriend of hers on RG477V, always buying them Milo, I wonder when is it and how it becomes like that? Isn't she still with her first one the "boy22223"?
I remember they will become the fastest hacker's database editor in my hacking group(the top 2 workers), sayings by doctor so definitely being nice to them first is already cool. I wonder what multiplayer games we will play together, maybe it's actually "Monster Hunter"? Are there other multiplayer games that's 3 people? Hahaha. Funny to become friendly with 2 younger kids, but it's all because I live a lonely life, games been my priority since N.S days to never live without it. I definitely love to play games as a man.
It's still early celebration, RG477V is not out yet on Amazon, it's definitely a device people would truly care as it's big and makes a feeling of wealth or richness. People definitely will be playing it for a long time? I hope to have people to be playing games with me too.
The days of playing games makes me excited and wonder if I still have anhedonia about it. I really hope the excitement lives on for a long time. Wow the happiness for RG477V is real, it's very nostalgic and rich fun that I want to feel.
Then I will wonder if somehow I got a fishing friends too then hahahaha. At least to be someone that gives back to family by getting fishes to cook or eat maybe? But I definitely prioritize in fishing with doctor, as maybe they don't know how to fish too, or it will be odd but how this story exist by doctor? Doctor is really a psychic?
If it's been since 2023, the small girl in relationship for more than 2 years with the same guy? Then how they add me together in Plato? But then why story of Doctor is "RG477V"? Means it's really soon my life will be hanging out with them just because I'm a lonely person? Means the 2nd boyfriend will also schizophrenia is what this means.
I'm imagining doctor gift me an RG477V during my Jobclub cleaning training, and I feel happy about it, I also feel happy if I get to work at Popeyes early and buy myself RG477V, it will definitely be fun life. I definitely must quit smoking by then, but smoking maintained my health temperature into coldness when I need by pressing the filter to crush the ball, and if it's already too cold I don't have to crush the filter ball. I definitely want a life with someone bored too and play games together that's multiplayer. Our age will make the boundary of a friendship because they're definitely aged around the small girl's age. But it will be cool knowing my top 2 workers first 1 day.
Happier clothes that I bought makes my future feels brighter, I imagine once I eat risperidone my vision will change into a lot of light and it will feel clearer, it's weird but it's like that, but sometimes I will see more of my father's face alot I remember but maybe at that time I actually skipped medications? It's weird they will recover at 41 years old, means actually when I'm older I will still consider 41 years old like a smaller kid because right now in 37 years old, I feel gaming is life still. Games are everything happiness in life.
I really don't know if I can survive well with just $270+ left, will I survive or will I suffer? I definitely will want to quit cig., this time will be my last try again? I will keep trying forever because it's the cause of hardship too in my life but actually because my family don't really support me with money even when they have it they're used to saying "no money", sadly it's like that. I really want to do well in this future of Jobclub, and start living my life properly. I've been living difficultly for 17 years in difficult body movement "to go here and there", it feels like a strict vein pulling me around "because of wanting niceness in life" I will chase to places to feel it. I really don't know why schizophrenia is like this but doctors didn't accompany me at all during my harsh times.
Energy for RG477V is like another jackpot if I get it, it's like having 400GB Data Simba Line that's higher level of happiness, it's like the biggest jackpot in life. It's hard to live daily thinking of my next day, then even if knowing I will work at Popeyes(maybe), I still have to undergo cleaning training first. It's really hard like this, I really want to work well in life.
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