Tomorrow my mother will be coming home from Jawa, finally the house will become having people again, I'm like alone for 20 days at sofa usually with my android.
Anyway finally I feel like a lifestyle person because I bought clothes for Jobclub, like having plans in life started again, I'm really lonely about it, but then it's still around 15 more days to go, still long time to go. I also feel like I definitely won't be having enough money and need to work somewhere daily paid, or maybe just work permanently and skip jobclub because I am short of money? Hard life.
When my mother is back home from Jawa, she planned to be cooking for me jemput-jemput Pisang and I'll be so happy about it, I ask her for a weekly special jemput-jemput or Pisang goreng. Hahaha.
I feel bad how I expected attention but only writing like this - it's supposed to be like a diary at first, then if I keep holding my feelings into secrets it's like maybe too painful "because nobody knows", blogging definitely like a combo of getting (S) into my life. Today is Friday, I ever think of meeting her every Friday in life, then it didn't happen for more than 10 years because I forgot I have ever met and talked to her.
I'm going to look for a job now and see if I will need to skip jobclub. I feel like applying at Popeyes myself but like not needed at the same time. Maybe I really will apply at McDonald's and see what happens to me maybe I will really improve in life.
I really feel bored how nobody contacted me for so long - I'm going off now, enough with the sadness I guess.
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