Unbelievable

I was in daze like too much in love I forgot when she's with someone else she actually don't care about me, I really don't feel like a strong man, I definitely just pushing to give up and just continue whatever happens at jobclub, it's weird to be so long, even if have a baby days video of me and her together maybe she still don't care about it as babies maybe have no feelings for each other. I don't know if psychic is true sometimes, I maybe will apply to work at Popeyes myself instead of waiting for jobclub, it's too long maybe.

I really feel like giving up totally I wonder what will happen? My writings became short, my mother gave me no hope at all. I'm just needing attention to try my parents to give me money, I want to buy new spectacles too. I guess all these while the difficulty is made to happen, wonder why they're like this, my brother spent on cig. without a problem at all.

I just feel like giving up and continue buying cig. because my body feels hot, I really feel somehow it will stabilize future babies the cig., because of colder temperature body. It's like meaningless kind of smoking, the only imagination is like throwing $13 burning cig., then it's like sadness already, nobody really plan to support me or help me about cig.

I feel I should just continue to try quitting like this.