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Not confident that my parents will become understanding after writing so much, I still will write more. My moustache have grown Abit so I look kinda funny, but the morning I get 16 viewers suddenly so early in morning makes me post with image again, hahahaha.

I'm still excited that I hear-back like doctors are actually fine that I smoke "and will help me quit", and I "must not make tattoo again", I really hope it's true that doctor will appear with RG477V when I'm working at jobclub, and support with money too, it's really hard kind of life why I'm made to hear all these? I know it's something like "have 'Life' on my T-Shirt", it's definitely happening soon in January? Why did I wait so much for Soldier Job in December? Why Hacker Job can't be earlier too?

Just now I'm at green shelter hoping someone will appear and accompany my life but nobody appeared, the only one that may appear is (R) and Epul as they've ever promised to appear in my life again, but I'm really not sure why I have to think of money it's because of them I guess, they ever kept talking of money that I don't hope for, but my difficulty makes me wish they are true too, why are people not so sensitive about money like they just talk as-if I will really get money, it's weird I have to be difficult then they speak such matters too, like a coincidence, my memory just reminds of them and small girl's talk reminds me like doctors will really support with money. I hope it's real then, I'm definitely going to suffer having $258.66 left in bank and around $5 in my wallet, I'm definitely dead by right, how can it last entire January? Then February is not confirmed to get G.S.T Money too.

I'm so unlucky but I remember I'm still recovering, it's really just about 6 mths+ to go then I'm 38 years old then I will recover for real? I hope it's not late-38 years old then I recover, I really want to feel healthy.

Why doctors didn't contact me too to update about (S)? I've been waiting for her for so long in my life then I kept being reminded that she tunang with someone else even after I told her I love her, it makes sense that the reality is: she didn't care of me at all. Why did my O.C.B.C help did not impact love to her? She worked more than 10 years there she definitely love the place, it's definitely sincere from me too, how it did not impact my love for her, like she would just really accept my love request? Why is she being stubborn or difficult on purpose? Why someone I love since kindergarten or baby days can't just love me back normally? I truly want a happy life and my happiness is definitely (S). It's hard to imagine future without her by my side as my wife, what am I going to become? What's going to happen to me?

My mother truly did not create a good response about her and making me imagine she's married with children instead, and had felt nothing about me, or like taking my love as light or just nothing, like she don't believe me I'm serious about getting her, then she chose not to effort I'm definitely helpless or feel hopeless. I don't know how others know more than me in the first place, they have her number while I don't, why is the imagination like that? Why aren't they just supporting by giving me her number? Did she assume I will get her number? If she treated me like nothing she actually consider it a harassment? Why is my luck so bad in life?

Today I feel of life would be wonderful if I have RG477V or Nintendo Switch, like a pain removal thing, they're definitely like painkillers to my life, just waiting for March or April then I will get either 1 by myself, it's so long but I think Jobclub will somehow be fast, I kept praying that Popeyes helps by hiring me faster, they really don't look like needing people but have job application demands at outside their restaurant, they definitely want workers too. Why is it like this? Why I have to feel so poor in life?

I remember only my neighbour in same difficulty as me, as in strictly not supported by money, I wonder why we get such treatments, we as people want to feel light and live life too, life is too heavy this way, I hope my neighbour knows about RG477V then I somehow will be in touch with him to play it together 1 day, definitely maybe "Monster Hunter" the only multiplayer games we can play as a team, painful part of life will definitely pass smoothly and we don't see the time as slow and painful. I really don't know if my neighbour didn't make me feel normal too, none of them really giving me number of my doctors too. It's hard I really want to ask doctor about (S).

I'm still quite lucky someone actually understands my pain, like I hope Hisyammuddin tells my mother about the heat we feel if too much same common sense but I don't know how to contact him too, then my other pain is money I hope my neighbour tells my father as life is really difficult. I wonder if such thing will even happen, I just have to live on like this hoping they(my family) remembers of giving me money to support me if I take medications on time, this is really too harsh and too long, I really want to walk around City Hall too, Esplanade etc. I miss life but I guess it's a normal feeling at those places, my family should walk around at Shopping Malls as family then life will be more fun again, life is too dull already, I definitely feel dead without money or money looks like it's finishing soon. They still let me be feeling having to endure life when it can be easier if they just give me money.