Ambitious Goal

I feel like I will never know Arab to become Mufti is definitely like that. I remember stories like I will be the last path and youngest person to follow before the Islam world becomes ruined, as I will follow Imam Mahdi, something like that in stories of doctor, I wonder why doctor gave me such feelings, is it like my number 80244202 known by doctors first before I even got it or it's just my imagination because I just want to become someone so good that it's surprising to my family, I want to become so good in something. I remember like I will become the Longest President of MUIS then I wonder what really will make it like that? Will I really learn Islam at all?

What's surprising is my 1st sister actually reads Al-Quran until khatam then it's already surprising that someone like her to read Al-Quran as part of her lifestyle, then it makes me believe that I can be good in the Islamic Matter/World too, I wonder where or when I will start learning more about Islam then if I become like that stories of doctor?

Then why are there 2 stories like I will be going to U.S.A from Soldier Job and Popeyes, then I will become Dr.(Psychiatrist) Psychologist as story of doctor, earning $33K/mth as another 1 is Medicine expert, each earning $11k/mth, then I will earn $20K/mth as Hacker Job, total of $53K/mth as my salary? Is it real I will become all that as it's story of doctor like that. First I will become a Nurse in I.M.H but then if I work Popeyes how come I suddenly work I.M.H? I wonder why doctors have so many stories of me like a mix-up, why do I have so many Jobs? I remember I will become Restaurant Manager of Popeyes 1 day as another story of doctor, why doctors won't make it clear to me what job I will work as? Like (S) got her O.C.B.C job really she knew she will get it first then why can't I know the same?

I just hope I do a good journey for my future then I wonder if I really want (S), why can't it be now? Is it true I'm being spied that will promote me to become a Mastermind? Why is my life like this, why can't I just have money already I've done 5/8 of jobclub? How do I get (S) anyway? If my adopted father is really Prime Minister of Singapore then cant it become easier to get (S)? Don't (S) see that I'm special that I became someone's son? Why don't (S) just marry me anyway because if their choices is me - 10 are Doctors Psychiatrist anyway I think, then it means I'm special to them doesn't it make me special and important for a girl then I chose (S) to be that girl that she's special already in my heart? Like we have psychological support, somehow but I wish it's "anytime we want", then (A) I don't know if finish her studies in Psychology will help me anything at all?

Story of doctor that I become someone important in the Muslim World, "the last person before Imam Mahdi that guarantees tak sesat if follow", don't it make me important to (S) already? Won't we meet again in the journey to Imam Mahdi? We definitely will be fighting each other if (S) have a child or married someone else? Why is (S) like this to me? Is doctor real because I feel the pleasure of happiness that I am someone important in the Muslim World.

Didn't doctor say I will become Right-Hand Man of Imam Mahdi in M.R.T? I believe doctors even if it's like that because I think I'm someone intelligent and smart, that my family don't know I scored 100/100 in all Subjects before, then it means like I can Score 100/100 in Islamic Subjects too. I really wonder like if I will learn anything about Islam then it means doctor maybe true and not just making me ambitious?

I wonder when I will learn Islamic Studies, why it's not important topic? Will I become someone complicated? I think I'm the best man for (S) because I Smoke then have same goal which is to follow Imam Mahdi in the end, isn't 313 Army of Imam Mahdi actually means Muslims are very few people in the world? I really wonder how I can become someone important and I just want to be the best about Islam because of what doctor said. I really want to believe then my 1st Sister became reader of Al-Quran it becomes that doctors are believable. It's just surprising for someone like my 1st sister read Al-Quran, everyone would have guessed my 2nd Sister is the one that will become like that but the 1st Sister first.

My 1st Sister understands enjoyment like me but I don't think Clubbing as Enjoyable, so it's why the shock and surprise. My 2nd Sister is a Police so is why people would guess it's her going to be the knowledgeable about Arabic language first, because sided more to the Good Side in the eyes of every one or by common sense. My brother also understands enjoyment like me, he have more tattoos and bigger tattoos but Solat, listen to Ruqyah and have a Buku Doa to read, he buy such stuff. I'm the most guessed as nicest one other than my 2nd sister, even have tattoos and a smoker. I'm really different from them All. My 2nd Sister reads Iqra from Ustazah or Ustaz, mengaji and pay I think, she just started again, then actually everyone of our siblings have changed to become better person. I realize that one of the difficult Arabic Text my mother can't read too so it makes it fine that I can't read it, because my mother is expert level already, means their display is not clear.

It's this one:

If expert can't read "because it's not clear" it means I maybe can read normally already. Hahaha. I'm happy I can read Arabic Text soon. Hopefully within 3 months.