I thought I haven't tried to play Monster Hunter on PC before, then I remembered I have ever tried on my brother's PC, I remembered about Anbernic RG477V is that I will play this game first on PC to get a saved game then it's like I won't play this game at all after that, then I really don't know the feeling is so bad playing a game I wonder why, I don't feel good playing a game at all especially doing the quest it feels like need to keep killing Monster until Giadrome appeared, for 50 mins is a long time, I wonder how long they going to keep the Giadrome? Maybe it's true I will try again later.
My blog not able to function on Google Chrome so I downloaded this Firefox Browser just to write this, I set it as default too, it feels different and Abit slower but as long as can blog I'm still happy. The text looks smaller than usual I think.
I remember from the Bald Doctor or My Current Doctor that I will play Monster Hunter on PC first then I have ever tried and gave up early, doesn't this mean that actually they really going to gift me an RG477V? Are we really going to have fun playing a 2009 game? I really hope so. But how did my life end up like spending time with doctors alot 1 day? When will we meet and play games? How did it happen if I work already 1 day?
Right now I'm feeling like sick like I can't think of something to do, I've learnt Iqra for today then I'm really feeling like learning Mandarin language but then it's boring, how will I have fun in life if this bad feelings keeps coming back? I guess it's the spike making me this way? The scare from thinking about poison at food was not smoking at that time, then I think it's the spike that caused me to smoke again, I really don't know how to create myself not to walk all day. I have tomorrow and Sunday to think of how to manage my life better.
I tried writing a lot then I noticed it didn't create a lot of readers but just simple writing still makes readers, wow I wonder when I will become like everyone working and earning money peacefully, I this time hope that Popeyes hire me even if it's after the 8/8 done on jobclub, I really have nothing to do in life and I want to force myself to work.
People don't know the stress I am in and just consider like the commands to my life is what it should be done, they don't consider like I am sick and some thing I really hard to do, I still hear the voices in whispers it's harsh I have to bear with this for so long, it caused me to write in an angry manner. I really want my normal life back like working and earning money peacefully, but someone like me in the end just earning normally I really dont like it, I really did well in the past and didn't get anything, I don't know why my family is like that, maybe doctors the one that decided it to be like that, I really can't do anything I don't know how to request doctor to make my life easier, or my relative or my family, they definitely know money is the point and they have told me to wait for work, then I would just have to wait for it, by knowing it's entire month kind of "wait first". It's like insane like this writing then like feeling someone read then feeling like no one cares when I get 5 or 7 readers, then just remembering about (S) said she will read makes me energized to just write anyway, people are like seeing my mental state as unwell then I write around like this. I don't know how to make a place fun to read so adsense offer to place ads at my place, I guess I'm just so boring.
People know takde orang layan will feel bad but still doing it, I don't know why they have the heart to make me like more delusional of situation, how to see if my parents care that I have taken medications and decided to support me with money? It's only doctors that can do it, then it means doctors didn't support for me to have money at all. Why being a doctor someone that's supposed to make patient feel good like that then? I'm so stress my age not supposed to be this kind of difficulty at all.
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