Bought and Ate Masak Merah Briyani

It's disappointment like the taste is nothing special like my nenek gemok's masak merah, she's the best cook in ayam masak merah I think. The biryani tastes normal like a curry chicken biryani, too bad for me I guess. It's a lot and big causing the okayness of the buy as it's only $7 for so big chicken and biryani rice.

I'm full eaten it I wonder what (S) eats is it the same and bought at Hillion? I wonder why doctors never update me about (S) maybe I would get doctors' number is why, I would be an annoying person I guess asking about (S) many times, or even others, then why I would ask about so many girls, because the break-ups were unintended, it's the mischief of a small girl causing me to believe wrongly of my ex-es, so many years 16 and 20 years far apart I still think of them due to my memory loss I didn't feel the years gone just like that. It's sad how I would be wanting them back while not knowing what their heart feels towards me, it's bad a statement can cause break-ups.

I smoked my last stick then hopefully it's no more buying of cig., I really can't take it anymore, my cash is becoming so low and it's causing me to be panic of my future, I need to save until the next G.S.T/Assurance Package or Cost-of-Living Package then I only left so little to try until March, my parents definitely need to give me money I'll ask them about it 1 day I guess, it's too harsh I cannot make it until August definitely, the last years of reaching 38 is definitely the most difficult year ever. Waiting for 12 February for budget news is so long, I think I am just becoming a stress person at home, hopefully I can sleep in the day once I have quit smoking, this time is the real moment to make stoppage of cig. until I start working at Popeyes.

I can't like working for free at jobclub but if it's called a free training maybe it's something worth it, if it's $90-$200 for first talk with O.T definitely it's something worth in for my future. I really don't want to suffer for so long in my life.

I totally forgot how it tastes like it feels like I have done the same last year, I remember having a big packet at living room, then that's all. Today I entered house with a bird in house, it really feels like it happened before as the bird shit on a seat.

My luck in the world is like that it feels like a repeat happened, I think of messaging my mother after this "mak 6 months dah makan ubat dapat duit tak? Anas da takde duit nak beli spectacles and enjoy life" Maybe something like this. Hopefully my mother give me a positive response, I really have no money considered as have nothing in my life. It's really a bad life journey they think I would buy drugs maybe, but why doctors didn't really ask my family to give me money for me? Why do I have to ask myself? I would still ask later. I copied that question to send my mother later or tomorrow.

It feels bad being short of cash, nobody understands the difficulty like my life and nobody maybe suffers like me too. Then I still bought a $7 biryani just now, haiz.