Chilli Tuna Today

Happy still found chilli tuna in kitchen, I really got nothing to do, I downloaded pokemon yesterday to play Abit hoping can feel the fun then I didn't feel any fun, I wonder what games to play then, maybe I should just download ppsspp to play PSP games on android. I feel like trying sleep later but I will wake up wanting cigs. I think, it feels like I can sleep still, woke up at 7.20a.m just now took my medicines then bath, today is Saturday (S) finally resting from work maybe. As usual I would think of her as playing with her niece, then I wonder why she didn't talk to doctor for me at where she's at about money, like to talk to my parents, she really don't have initiative too like (W) and (A), don't understand why it's hard for me to get money in life.

The pain is being felt on purpose and don't know what's their gain on doing this, to create an angry feelings in my heart, like promoting panic and heart-attack too because my luck hearing the small girl's voices sometimes especially now is finishing of injection medicine, I'm so bad luck.

I forgot I should go N.T.U.C maybe buy Sushi as food, and 3 cans of Chilli Tuna for $10, maybe I will have enough to last until next month, January have 31 in calendar so unlucky it's so long my wait for my $18 work at jobclub, I just have to wait, it feels like will get the $144 "after completed training" then $18/day February onwards because I hear such voices, I wonder why they make us free work, I hope it's really true that I will get money after the probation period is over, then means I can save up for Anbernic RG477V, I kept losing memory what I'm saving money for, and I need a plan to not waste on Bicycle like making gears for it then it will feel nice to ride it.

It's so hard it's only 24th January, it means 1wk+ more to wait, thinking of money sucks then (S) don't have initiative to contact me even if a Degree person, I really don't know what to do since long time ago but she didn't contact me even after more than 10 years. It's stupid like this.