Today my brother gave me $200 luckily, I managed to survive until March hopefully, it's like more than enough, then it means I can survive the entire month peacefully because March will get Money $144 from working at Jobclub in February. I really want to be hired at Popeyes sooner but then I just can only wait, at least by the time I would get proper salary monthly.
We reaching the month of Ramadan and I wonder if I will puasa full month I know 23 February I have an injection to go then it means I will miss 1 day of puasa.
I really hope I can make it and do well bulan Ramadan, I just want to be feeling better and complete.
I didn't play Patapon 2 for now as anhedonia really happens then I feel bored of it maybe, but I have 4 days to go until my next jobclub and will earn money already, finally I'm leaving a jobless life and earning money. Money makes me more energetic to do the jobclub work.
Right now the Dark Vision is around and I feel blurry like Sotong and unstable, I hope it goes away but I know it only goes away after every sleep, I wonder what created it to happen, it feels like "too little cigs." is the reason because I have been smoking only small amount from Storm King.
I think this was ever told before that I would receive money and I think (S) would've money too, maybe psychic doctor really helps me about (S) and the rest, I told him I don't know what to do it was an unwanted break-up I think, then I want to keep in touch with them again, in the past I said this I think. Schizophrenia really messed up my life and if small girl wasn't around, maybe I would still be with them or they would be with me in a harder way because it's too long number of years I wonder how to be normal with them again. My effort of blogging is to get (S) but I wonder what will happen as fact, no one contacted me yet even after leaving my phone number many times, I truly have no friends it's been so many years.
I'm thinking of downloading other PSP games later like Virtual Tennis: World Tour maybe, at least it's fun the Tennis, I wonder if I can maintain my stability(my dark vision keeps happening), but it's not about total darkness I wonder if my eyes rolled up abit it really looks like wanting to roll up, I think maybe usually at this time I would lose my memory then my eyes didn't roll up means my memory is not loss, just too bad having schizophrenia making it more difficult on getting (S) as I remember I kept losing memories whenever I see her because I became too happy, then I continued my journey wherever I was going, it's sad I didn't even remember at that time and forgotten have ever talked to (S) when she was Innova J.C, I really miss seeing her face then she didn't effort to see me at all? What's making her hard to not contact me? I remember it's something like she will use Simba and start contacting me once it happens, I wonder how long it will be by then, would I be already working at Popeyes?
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