Done Jobclub 8/8!

Finally I'm done and it's start of earning next Monday onwards, didn't receive money like I hear the voices then I assume it's in March, but hopefully it's on the same day that I receive money but like impossible it will happen like that.

I'm at Day 168 out of ward on medications and total of 216 days on medications.

My Simba data usage is 2.46gb/400gb, using like a normal person already, just without headphones if not I can play games maybe while on the way to I.M.H in bus.

Today I reach home with very little rice, then I ate 1 piece of udang kari semalam, then I cook rice planning to eat udang kari until finish, I hope I will be happy later haha. Really have nothing to eat is bad then my mother puasa means she will cook late then I won't have food, I still have supermarket vouchers to use maybe can buy Sushi or 3 tincans of chilli tunas, really survival kind of life this coming month, cashless is hard life to live, Popeyes didn't hire me yet today, I thought it's every end of month but then not yet sadly, I feel like wanting to ask at Popeyes myself, but nvm maybe waiting for Jobclub is still better because they visit on first week I think, I really try to do my best this year, I hope I recover soon.

No one became my hero about money, just hearing voices that I will get money but I didn't get, it's bad like this the voices doesn't match with stories I hear, I think it's just like a dream kind of thinking, even RG477V I don't have it most probably I must buy myself because doctors forgotten of it, I wonder why I'm let to be hearing such voices, it's so unlucky, it's really small girl's voice wonder why she setup each situation into hearing her voices, maybe she knew about RG477V too because doctor ever told, then it became like this unhappy for my life.

I'm happy the jobclub probation period ended and earning money next week, it's just so expensive when thinking of it $3.10 per journey, then it's $12.40 per week, then I earn only $18/day, like finishing transport money but my mother provides it, then it becomes okay. Means March I will have $144 to save or live my life again, I really will suffer without cigs. but I guess the moment should be soon, I only have a little bit of Storm King tobacco left.

(S) definitely happier today as today is Thursday, I wonder if she also "only get transport EZ-link" then eating home food, I wonder if the same as me still or not, udang kari, haha, it's so nice it's aroma is same like Ketam then I really like it a lot, just my luck rice finished already, I think I'm finishing it later, too hungry every time jobclub.

I think I really have nothing to write anymore, just have 90cents left in my wallet, can't even live life properly now, so hard life. I now suddenly feel like buying at their 7-11 food using EZ-link I wonder how I feel like this, it's bad I guess, I wonder how (S) and the rest survives, wonder why they like to suffer along with me when can have a nicer life, it's like they worry I ask them to belanja me instead, that's why eating the same as me hahaha.