I just ate chicken chop with tomato rice just now and I'm thinking how when I'm unhappy I can write a lot of stuff.
I think when I was a baby I was a good baby causing me to have a lot of adopted fathers, doctor ever said 1 day when I work Popeyes someone will treat me like a son again, then want to gift me a Legion 2, wow. Doesnt this mean actually money been easy to earn then my family just being strict on me? I don't know how to start the conversation about money with my mother, I really thought 6 months of medications = money.
Is life really like that, having more fathers means becoming rich suddenly in life will happen? Who have more than 10 adopted fathers in the world? I really feel special, like can I become "Allah's Son" too? If God treated me like a Son I wonder what I can get in the world? I have my own acres of land to build factories maybe, have my own horses farm? Wow.
There's a biz that we can buy goats and they care for us, at Desaru I think the farm, I feel if I have money to invest in such thing.
If God treated me like a son, would I have my own rare animals? Because if psychic treat me like a son I get to know future.
Life's definitely fun if that happens.
I would want my own set of baby horses of all set of colours: brown, black, white, zebra, donkey, mix of brown and white, light brown, mix of light brown and white - wow so many baby horses.
I would want abandoned structures to own and sleep at as my own houses too. I wonder why such thing can't happen? People abandoned million dollars structure just like that is weird, why are people so rich why don't they just give me their money? Hahaha.
I've done reading Iqra for today I still now find like ma mi mu, and ha hi hu as something similar in life, in their written form they would look the same?
Today is Saturday and (S) is not working, she probably spending time with her niece and can't find time for me, I think if someone love would actually give time for me, I think (S) really haven't loved me yet, I really don't know how to make her fall in love with me, we didn't communicate at all, life's so hard like this.
I think I have decided to just buy my own Anbernic RG477V instead of waiting for doctor when I start working at Popeyes, maybe it's a dream after all and not reality, while those stories that people would support me actually could be 1 year of medication as reason instead of 6 months, I really just have to let calendar pass by my life in order to know, they won't news to me anything about incoming money.
I don't know which episode I have stopped watching animes at then I can't continue as doctor don't let me message then I can't ask my anime episode, then I can't continue watching, I remember doctor saying I would watch again from disc, does this mean I will become a disc anime person 1 day? I no longer will watch anime from home? It's been more than 10 years maybe I haven't watched anime then I have a lot to catch-up. Even Pokemons I want to watch where I last stopped watching it.
I think the only way is to watch new animes and keep up a new listing of episodes to watch.
I think the other way is to create my blog into different styles maybe then I will gain people that talk to me in chatbox maybe, my life really not growing but just days passing by doing the same everyday.
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