Today is 150 days of medication outside ward, then total of 198 days on medications already. I really don't know why I still calculate this even if doctor said it's 1 year done then change into another medicine, it's maybe 2 years is what he meant.
My Simba data is 348mb/400gb only and expiry is reaching soon then it will reset, I still don't know where to go or have money to go out to spend data, saving doesn't increase the next time using it, I feel it like a waste but it's still a waste of money if go out maybe.
Today is Sunday and (S) at home living her life maybe not remembering me at all, it's been so long I wonder why she's still just ignoring me, maybe certification is the real reason she's ignoring me. Nobody is helping me get her like no updates then I'm just growing up to endure life without her or in a lot of questions about her life. They let me panic when I forgot I have ever talked to her and told her before that I love her.
I just ate Burger Ramly half of it just now then I'm hoping I can fall asleep until tomorrow jobclub, I finished my cig. then planning to not buy today but usually this happens and I end up buying again, I wonder why it's like that. I hope I'm successful today, I'm just going to close my eyes and rest for today, life's boring and have another whole day until tomorrow jobclub I definitely will be craving for cig., the difficult period in my life is everyday of feeling boredom.
I think (S) don't really think of me at all btw, it's been so many years why would she be thinking of me?
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