Brother bought me spectacle

Luckily he buying me a spectacle, the stress really ended just like that, I'm happy as getting it from lenskart.

He also bought me MrBean cheese pancake just now, hahaha it's been so long I tasted a pancake of MrBean, I used to be addicted to the cheese and chocolate and used to buy it everyday then now the price is $2/+ per pancake so expensive.

I think salary of normal people matching to be stable with the prices nowadays too, I hope I don't experience a difficult life again, I hope the money is enough for my entire February and get money in March, $144 is really little but I really think can survive for entire month, because my mother will be topping up my EZ-link.

My brother also bought me a pack of cig. $13, it's nice and makes me happy, his one costs $15 so expensive, I bought the cheapest cig. instead. I wonder if my life will be okay like this it's his first time buying me a cig. so I can't expect to save up from his belanja all the time.

I think of having a smooth feeling by playing PSP games but I don't know what to play, I wonder what (S) does I don't play games means she don't play games too? But I remember she play games on her twitter many years ago, I wonder if sum up she actually have a better life than me, because I ever 2 years of N.S then my life really sucks at that time. It's bad thinking of her a lot then she don't think of me, when will I get a response from her? I tried messaging her Facebook still no responses too. Her GoodHood and SnapChat too, no responses from any of it.

I wonder when someone like me will give up, I know I have jobclub to do on 5 February, then I really want to be with her already, I remember I really want her to be in my life since I was small, it's many times telling this then I wonder when or how it will work, I really want her and that's all, why she don't give herself to me, I really thankful I did not become like a Psycho too, but mental problem makes it harder to get her, I feel so stupid if I score high in future educations I wonder what for if life without her, I don't fall in love easily. No one is updating me about her too, I wonder how long they all going to keep me wondering if I can get her, no one gave me any news of her.