Today is Birthday of (W)

She's 37 years old already so soon, wonder if she's married or still waiting for me, why didn't she check my recovery though, why didn't she try to visit me in hospital for so many years? I've been warded yearly I think every 29th June until 15th August, this year is the "finally the end" of being warded over and over again repetitively, I've been taking my medications peacefully.

Happy Birthday (W) anyway, next month exactly is Birthday of (S), then 17 June is Birthday of (A).

I'm thinking if they really care about me at all, it's weird to be living like in relationship then due to medical problem have to distant from each other, then I wonder what they will make me feel like, will they make me happy or sad? I'm really worth it I think, it's been so many years single life and no communication with anyone, I just decided my blog to be different Abit today because usually it's the same writings.

Won't celebration of Birthday means actually they would have different food? It's okay anyway, I really don't know what they eat but if a cake definitely Chocolate Cake if she spends herself, she just looks like Chocolate flavour anyway hahaha.

I played with A.I and have her image and mine together like we touch cheek, then it makes me feel like creating picture of (S) too funny.

I guess I can't special anyone due to schizophrenia I loss memory of my relationship then they didn't effort to remind me fully, but only a bit of what's promised I think, sadly it's only limited and they also know I don't take my medicines at that time, I wonder how they know anyway, maybe it's my post became merepek then it got found out.