I came for doctor appointment too early and they told me to go back and come back later, I really have no choice I checked the doctor not at room yet too. Sad today waste just another $6+ like that just for medicines, cost of a chicken chop with tomato rice.
I hope life becomes easier as Thursday is my last day of February working, happy goaling for the $144 full amount in March, I hope I will be fine until August. It's difficult life journey to imagine $200 for 1 month and then it's actually 5 months for $1000, buying the RG477V makes me leaving like $800 after getting $144 of salary.
Now I'm recovering slowly it's hard, waiting for 1.30p.m now, just now I thought of walking at Sengkang Shopping Centre then luck of meeting (A) but then I remembered she work and today is Monday anyway, there's really no luck of bumping into her.
I'm sad how I am not successful in quitting smoking, but I still managed to drag the hours from smoking means I don't smoke after buka puasa I'm still fine.
Today I feel happy I completed my jobclub without Redbull in the morning, it's just successful finish for today and I feel fine about it. I have another 40 minutes left before going back to I.M.H and I think somehow it's worth it, just for the injection and taking medicines, I think it's needed to feel an extension of medicine moments in life. It's reaching 9th month on medication then I think the recovery moment is still not yet as I still hear voices, it's sad how I feel like I'm a crazy person then I can't get my (S). Even during medications I am unstable mentally, but just managing enough strength to keep working. I hope the job comes earlier but O.T already said it's mid March then I get info about jobs, I hope it's true the end is finally here.
I feel like writing a blog is meaningless as no one at attention or conversation about it with me, no one commented too I have no interaction with anyone in blog too, wonder where's doctors why they don't talk about me being spiked but I just live my life.
I hope I still have energy to go back I.M.H it's such a long distance then repetitively go again, it's harsh the timing of meeting is late by 3.5hrs.
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