Done with Injection

Now seeing doctor after 3 months, means it's going to be my 1st time 2 injections-only then see doctor, finally it will be fast and easier. Just now meet my nurse Ma Yuchuan and he said that's the last time because there won't be any more visits, it's finally the end and I will be having smooth days after this focusing on jobclub alone earning money monthly. I hope I get a good job that I can survive.

I really don't know but I still feel like working at Popeyes, but I think like it's not going to happen because I will take O-level next year, will I? I remember in the past I plan to take O-level because schizophrenia keeps happening over and over again.

Just now at jobclub I charge my phone awhile but it's like no use, after charging it's still 20% battery left, haha. The jobclub is like easy and I enjoy earning money this way, I remember at first start of difficulty is to work like earning $50/mth then I got a $144/mth, I know I feel like a handicap that can't work, when I remember Hisyammuddin I think I actually can do it too, he's my only energy of keeping up to take my medicine because will work a stable job.

Life's really hard I spend on cigs., then I think it's my only way in life is to keep earning money because my parents won't give me money, I wonder why it's like that the strictness is the same even if I'm schizophrenic, they don't give me a chance to feel an easy life at all, I'm just sad about it.

This will feel like a long way to go, because June is the memory of being warded multiple times that keeps being gone, that I even forgot I have schizophrenia during N.S, I hope my memories really comes back in June, it's really a difficult life journey with schizophrenia then lovesickness, then feeling not capable of doing many things, I really stress how if I can't take O-level next year, my dream of becoming someone successful in the end won't happen? I really want a stable job and I don't know what jobs I would do, doctors really didn't tell me too which is sad I have to think on my own.

I just feel like applying jobs that appears at HaloSGJobs but I remember my strength is still to only work what jobclub gives me, then I have to be slow and become stronger. I'm so unlucky I loss so many years of couple-life, because of schizophrenia and none of my ex check on me which is sad too, I really have to live my life alone, it's weird but I think its like they don't actually care about me at all. They are happily earning big money then I'm left like a broken man.