Day 195(243 on medications)

Today is Wednesday means tomorrow I work, life is to imagine working already as something daily instead of being at home. I'm so bored like mad having nothing to do at home. I'm starting to feel lazy to blog but I need to keep up the counts if not I will need to count again at notes.

My Simba data usage: 1.57gb/400gb.

I dreamt yesterday being bestfriends of Aliff Syukri and Elon Musk, we walk and laugh then I woke up it's just a dream. I dreamt of boys in cages like a prison too. I really dreamt a lot and I don't remember all of it. 1 of the dreamt i work in Immigration and I dreamt of black jacket too. I read the interesting dream definition at auntyflo.com but I don't know if I should believe anything.

The hours pass by quite quickly, and it's been a week of fasting and I hope I don't become lazy from going jobclub, the appearance of laziness like something tiring to feel in life, maybe it's because I have no Redbull today. I remember when I went to work without Redbull and cig. I still survive and can work so it means Redbull is not really the reason?

It's tiring like this written so many and nobody cares I really don't know what to do in life, nobody cares my life is repetitive and nobody pity me it's boring and low confidence of spending money to go out, because of saving, then it have to be this way because I don't always get money from my family, I don't know why my parents still not giving me money it is bad I have to survive.

The February feel like ended but then tomorrow is only 26th February my last day of work this month, I feel like I calculated too fast.