I decided to message Whatsapp my father to buy me RG477V I hope it's a nice response, but he did not reply, I wonder what will happen will I even get it at all? It would be nice I would save $144 for the protective casing maybe then I get to topup my Simba line living life normally.
It's just too many information that's been edited then I became not having psychic knowledge, it's really bad the small girl I became not knowing and wondering so many things, it's so hard but I have to live on through this.
Due to my zikir and dua are not granted I really think the praying of her failing her degree will not be successful also, orang kate orang teraniaya dua makbul but me don't think so, I really want to believe but I didn't get (S), she considered like have blocked me permanently as fact, it doesn't really matter if I know she works at O.C.B.C, I really am giving up soon, once I get my RG477V that is, it's because I didn't work at Popeyes, it's just story of doctor, I really living by hearing voices then assume as story of doctor or if it is nice I will believe it, but during my medications moment? It is bad I really don't want to remember something wrong but I had, memories of small girl is really bad still lingering in my mind like fuming me into anger and boiling my heart, it's so not peaceful it becomes if she's successful in life after being such a bad idiotic girl, I'm definitely unhappy if she gets a good job with a lot of money, as her life will be happy. I feel like punching her boyfriend too, but maybe only Hari Raya is the luck of such thing, I'm so angry I lost 2 girls and the experiences in life, the 2 girls also didn't care if I will die and have no initiative to contact me, means they really have considered me as something over and just their past in life, it's so stupid like believing doctors' lies that everything will be fine, then I loss memory due to not taking medication continuously for 16 and more years, I really loss my life experiences too as fact. I could have been having fun with them at MOS Burger, Jollibee, etc. until there's so many new restaurants that I still haven't had fun with any of the 2 girls. My life is definitely gone by the small girl, it means injuring her boyfriend is the best revenge, but story of doctor had to be like truthful, that I think only to injure her most loved one. I think the war really haven't ended as she haven't paid me back anything, if she pays me earlier then I wouldve wasted money, then until today I'm in difficulty of money I became writing it down publicly, the she haven't paid my loss + this, it's making her my true enemy like I definitely will call her a Kafir in the end if I don't forgive her, I don't care because my name is "Muhammad", then people believe in zikir and dua except me, I start losing the belief now, because it's not working, to think "1 or both will become Kafir" it's hard to believe such thing will even happen. The time definitely will come because I'm becoming desperate about money and she still never paid me anything, especially my J.B journey to and back, I wasted money just few hours like that. She's such a bitch. I pray she fail her N.U.S and her friends know that she ever pretended as my ex and had sex with my brother to ruin the pleasure thinking of my ex (A), another is ruining my confidence because I'm "N-level". 1 day she will see the war is not over because I'm recovering.
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