Life is really slow, today is only Tuesday then tomorrow is another rest day then I work on Thursday.
My RG477V tracking status is "received by local delivery company", so maybe I will be receiving it today or tomorrow? I'm really glad the feelings of playing games exist yesterday, does this mean my anhedonia will be gone soon 1 day? I'm really happy about it.
I wonder what will happen in life about my recovery, yesterday I didn't experience any holy dreams, I dreamt of Yusali, his father, Heryadi then I forgot what's the dream about, I dreamt about dinosaurs too that we can ride the dinosaurs to move to places. The dinosaurs are small like Kickskooters and we can sit and go to places with it.
It's weird I didn't get a happy dream of Sakinah for a long time, it's really harsh all the girls I miss as are my jackpot feelings in life if I get, especially Sakinah, I really don't know what happened up until now then I just live my life with nobody cares about it, it's harsh this life is so cruel.
I really don't know what to do now, the boredom feeling and I woke up at 9+a.m, then I went down and see my mother missing don't know where she goes to, life is truly boring and I have no idea what to do. I wish RG477V is here with me already I am really bored as I have nothing to spend time on.
I'm thinking of something interesting to write about my recovery but I can't think of anything, I really take my medicines daily as planned then I don't know why it's just taking medicine daily as plan of doctor then it's nothing else. Jobclub is really about working and earning money then the redirection to other company for work will happen, then doctors didn't have other ways to recover faster. I think when I change medicine, my anhedonia will be gone and I'm waiting for that moment that I don't feel crazy or like allergy to the medicine anymore, I really think this medicine causes me to get anhedonia.
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