I have 111 days left to become 1 year on medication. I'm really doing well eating my medications daily, it's really a nostalgic feeling to keep living it up, especially when I walk around outside and sit at green shelter, the nostalgic feeling of happiness when I go out of ward exist like that, it's still 159 days to go to become 1 year outside ward anyway.
Tomorrow is my working day and my I.M.H Research day to get my $100, I'm really happy about it, it will be 2.5hrs to 3hrs long but for $100 I think it's worth it. Time really flies I hope I end March nicely and get a job during March instead of April waiting for a job and working 3 days a week. I really want to skip this into a nicer life feeling. I really feel like I can have a life if i got a job from jobclub.
Yesterday I dreamt alot but I forgot what I dreamt about unfortunately, it was a nice dream too. I wonder why I dream easily nowadays, the voices exist to make me feel like dreaming about it, I think dreams can be created by hearing voices too, then 1 day even after 10 years, can dream of it as our memory about it appears during sleep. It's really nice, I hope can have such thing as dreaming of Allah but there's no such thing, I wonder what Allah looks like why he let us suffer in life and stay in Heaven feeling good all the time.
The way of life me having my Adidas hoodie, dark blue long sleeve hoodie, then I still haven't have any idea on what I do at night for bicycle, I imagined RG477V playing with someone but it didn't happen, I remember doctor saying I will be with my hoodie a lot, maybe actually I go fishing all the time? I hope my first $1000+/mth salary I buy fishing equipment to fish and spend my time as a fisherman every weekend, I really want to feel different in life. My only hope for fishing is to fish with my nephew Anaqi.
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