Day 209 outside ward(257 on medications)

Feel really normal today, I feel like not drinking sweet water but this No Kalori drink makes me feel healthier as I will always drink plain water with it as a syrup. It's really nice and makes me happy.

Simba data usage: 3.10gb/400gb.

Really have about 5 more days then it will reset and I haven't been spending my phone like normal people, it's too little but I'm just happy of the nice number I have, I think it's worth it, I wonder for how much longer will I remain as no friends.

Yesterday I slept quite late I wonder what is causing it, maybe it's the Redbullz making me can't sleep but it's okay I guess, I have 12 more days to go for injection then it's another month to wait until April, time really flies fast I hope I get a job already, it's really exciting to finish my low salary with a nice job salary to do and I hope it happens faster, I wonder how many times I have repeated this but my excitement still exist it means I'm still fine about it.

I checked at shop the Plain Water is 70 cent then it's something like can save money alot, like 40 cents save each day for 31 days is $12.40, buying this is definitely a life saver. I can't wait to receive my Quit Smoking Inhaler then it means I will save up more money for my future, life is really hard but everyone is going through an easy life because they have no schizophrenia and can work. It's really heavy for people with schizophrenia to think about life having to work, but I can't live like a part time job everytime, it's really difficult to live like that, I need to become someone that saves money for my future like others, starting salary even if still low it's something I can do is what's important.

I plan to play my console today as I've downloaded a lot of games to play it, I know I can't do well playing games yet because of anhedonia and I just keep wishing I didn't waste money buying it, I just need to be good about using it and setting up the files then it will be nice feeling using it, for now it's manual listing of games at the emulator. I plan to download game pack to play it. I also feel like buying R36S due to the lot of games exist there already to just play, I'm too bored in life and really don't know what to do, the change of medicine in 2 mths definitely will make me feel better and stronger person.